I was a little shocked when he posted it on my wall because he knows I'm not out. I know he wasn't being facetious and it was just something he found amusing and wanted to share with me. I was thinking about deleting the comment for a very brief moment, but I didn't. Why? I'm gay. I have nothing to hide. I am not ashamed. And maybe it would be my coming out to people who don't know.
Remember the other night I was texting one of the Mike's and the whole Gary Busey comment? Well, this afternoon I get this message from the other Mike on facebook.
"I am going to go ahead and delete you as a friend cause this picture in my Highlights bar is just disgusting. If you want, you can add me back in a week or two when your "Guys with iPhones" Picture goes away."
I was a little sad at first that he did this because Mike has a big mouth, and we know how word travels with him, so I'm sure in about an hours time most of my former good friends will know. Then I thought about it and so what Mike? So what? I'm gay. You're a stupid, hard headed, Bible loving, conservative who can't accept that I'm not heterosexual. Screw yourself. I thought about writing him a snarky message back, like "are you jealous that even though you have an iPhone you're not good enough looking to be featured on that site?" "If you'll notice Mike, I wasn't the one who posted the picture."
It does hurt, I mean Mike used to be a great friend. I have explained to him, as well as the others, what happened with my sister, and how I did not send out the texts. I have done so much to try to help and repair my relationship with Mike. When my sister texted him saying she was glad he lost his job days before I was there sending him links to jobs he was qualified for in fields he is interested in because I was worried and cared for him. I have apologized profusely, my dad has, and so has my sister with her letters. I offered Mike everything I could. I was devastated after the whole issue with this, but I am moving on. It has been tough.
Just for the hell of it, I was hoping that my gay friends and friends who thought the photo was hot would make a comment on my picture or put "I like it" just to piss Mike off because I know he'll be looking at my facebook through the other Mike, as well as to make me feel good, like look at me Mike, I have all these people who like it, so hahahahahahahaha.
Overall as upset as I sound, I'm really not. Mike is an ass. I don't need him in my life.