The stress of work is really bothering me. It is in part due to teaching a new subject, curriculum, acquainting myself, writing ridiculously long lesson plans that are required simply because I'm an English teacher. The admin pressures - walkthroughs, student work on the walls, etc. I have questioned myself many times this year wondering if the students were truly learning.
I have 2 coworkers whom are teaching the same thing I am. Thank god for them. They give me ideas on what to teach, and how. Would I be able to do that on my own? Nope. But what bothers me is when I look at their lesson plans and see I didn't teach something, or I am behind. I hate that. I know I will get it done and I will teach my kids. At the same time I wonder if I'm going too easy on the kids. So many thoughts... and these are the things that keep me up at 2am on a Monday morning when I have to be at work in a little over 4 hours.