Myspace: paranoia and evils

I was helping my dad today search for information on a friend of the family's kid. My dad said he'd look online and see if he could find anything to help them out.

I figured the best source for what we were looking for would be myspace since everyone nowadays has a myspace and a lot of people put pretty personal information on their myspaces, which is why I figured that'd be the best route to go.

I was a little hesistant to put my dad on myspace because he may be looking for my account in the future, which is one of my paranoias. Though I don't have anything to hide, I'm very hard to find on myspace just because I like the anonymity. I don't like the idea of my dad checking up on me because I figure I'm pretty trustworthy and I don't like the idea of my parents snooping.

Anyways, myspace was the perfect place to go and I found the 2 people I needed. First comment from my dad was "I guess you can find anything on myspace." The second thing he said was, "have you read Mr. X's profile?" Mr. X was a friend of the person we were searching for. I said no, I was just helping you find what you wanted. He said well, look at this. I sat down next to him at his computer and he was down at the personal information on myspace where sexual orientation is listed. He said "I'm finding out a lot about Mr. X." He had me read the comments on Mr. X's page. Then he went back to the orientation and kept rolling over that with the mouse. He said I figure Mr. X has a lot of problems with his parents and it is because of this. He is looking at me and smiling. Then he puts his arm on my shoulder, which is totally out of character for my dad except when he is trying to be comforting. The last time I remember my dad putting his hand on my shoulder like this was a couple years back when we were at some lecture where a friend of his was speaking and one of the speaker talked about the possibility of there being a gay gene. He did the same thing to me then. My dad is not a touchy, feely person who would usually do this, so that bothered me and sent a chill through me. Anyways, while sitting there my is smiling the whole time and pointing this out this information on Mr. X's myspace to me.

This just really makes me think my dad knows. Why would the fact that Mr. X is gay be of any importance to me otherwise? We weren't even searching for Mr. X. It really wasn't relevant and it was obvious that Mr. X is gay upon meeting him. We have met Mr. X on 3 or 4 occasions and it was obvious to me. Mr. X has his right ear pierced, he wears tight leather pants, he has a rainbow license plate frame on his car.

The Guy and Aaron

The Guy instant messaged me about 5:30 talking about ice cream and asking if the ice cream I brought the other night was still safe at home in my freezer. It was. He said Aaron was there and he wanted some. What did I do? I was covering my behind and texted Aaron to be sure.

His response was "no its ok the guy is being a jokester."

The banter/flirting between The Guy and I and the ice cream went on. As I agreed to come over and was signing off The Guy said to bring the ice cream. I didn't cuz he got after me the other night for giving in too easily.

Then I texted Aaron asking if he was sure. He said "no its fine."
I texted again, "its your call on the ice cream. The Guy is counting on you to make the right choice. Dun Dun Dun."
He didn't respond, so I said "Ding! Time is up. Im in the car speeding away. The Gu ya has you to blame. cant say I didnt try."
He texted me saying "I still blame you."

I got over and walked in to The Guy's place. The Guy and Aaron were sitting next to each other on the couch and they both asked if I had the ice cream. I said no and blamed it on Aaron. Showed my text messages to him to incriminate him- not me. They both talked about how they really wanted it. Then they sat there asking if I brought the ice cream and if it was a joke and it was in the car. I said no.

They both really wanted the ice cream, so Aaron, The Guy, and I deliberated and decided Aaron and I would go to CVS for ice cream. yay! I was hoping for more to go on during the car ride- not a kiss or anything dirty like that, but more intimate talk other than "how are you?" We just rushed in and out of CVS getting ice cream, milk, cereal, and chocolate syrup.

We get back to The Guy's place and begin dishing out the ice cream. We sit on the couch talking about good and bad flavors of ice cream. Mint and chip are good, drumstick flavored ice cream that Aaron chose is bad. Simple as that. We were flirting soooo much it was awesome and everything we were saying ended up having a sexual connotation.

After the ice cream, The Guy was playing EQ and so Aaron sat and watched, refusing to become involved. I didn't blame him. There was a game update and that gave me time to sit and flirt more with Aaron. I was horny- I'll admit and while I didn't think we were going to have a threesome because Aaron is very sensitive about his foreskin and embarrassed about it. He also doesn't manscape, which bothers The Guy. The flirting did help though. We all eventually got under the big down comforter The Guy keeps on the couch to cover up with and sat huddled together, talking, flirting, and watching each other play.

I started a new character in the game and ran around with The Guy playing until about 9:30. The Guy had to be up at 6:30 for work, so we called it a night early.

I want to hang out with Aaron- not for sex, but he is a funny, flirty guy, and we do seem to have a lot in common. So as he was walking to his car I texted him, "I had fun tonight. We should hang out sometime... Maybe go out clubbing or something or out to eat..." He texted me back "Yeah sounds great! Talk to ya later! Bye." He was texting and driving cuz I got that when he was behind me on the 10 freeway. HAH.

I guess the next move for me is to text/call Aaron about hanging out. I think Aaron is a cute guy, but I'm sure there will be no sex, but he is a nice guy who I'd like to get to know better, so I guess I'll make the move and call him.

Mike goes casual

Walked into work yesterday with an unshaven face. I hadn't shaved since Saturday. I was wearing black Reebok track pants. I had on an OP hoodie. First thing my boss says is "that's the most casual I've seen you- I didn't know you did casual." I said I was going for comfy and casual today. She laughed and said that's cool.

Mr. B however saw me and called me out on it. He said he was shocked how casual me, of all people dressed. I laughed it off. Mr. B wears a suit and tie everyday and is always talking about how it is so important to dress professionally. He said he wasn't sure he was ok with me doing that and how he sees me rebelling in so many ways. The only reason he thinks I'm rebelling is a comment I made questioning what someone had done that I disagreed with and he was skeptical about it. Totally unrelated.

Mr. P saw me and he said I was styling. He said I can definitely do the hoodie look (it was the first time I've worn a hoodie to work) and he told me that the track pants are definitely me and they look good. Mr. P teased me about my new look asking who I was out to impress and he was going to have to check them out. I love how he is so gender neutral "them."

At least I didn't run into the principal yesterday, who most definitely would have said something and it wouldn't have been good.

Late night hours with The Guy

Went over to The Guy's Sunday night to play EQ2 and hang out. We sat on the couch playing that and watching "Law and Order." We did take a break to go to the convenience store for some pretzels and 2 energy drinks The Guy is not supposed to be drinking because his trainer at the gym told him not to. We stopped playing about 10 and watched TV on the couch until about 11:30. Finally I said I was tired and was going to go.

Tonight after a lot of flirting online with The Guy about me bringing ice cream for us to have. Here's a little transcript of our convo...
The Guy: so how's my ice cream?
The Guy: safe?
Mike: it is
The Guy: ahh
Me: safe and cold in the freezer
Me: my deep freezer
The Guy: mmmm
Me: i think my freezer is doing a good job at keeping it cold
Me: it is extra cold... it's in a deep freeze... might take a while to thaw
The Guy: wish that were my freezer
The Guy: so the ice creams just sitting there huh
The Guy: i don't want it to go bad
The Guy: get your whole family sick
The Guy: and it would be my fault
The Guy: i'd feel awful, just awful
Me: I know
..... lots of random flirting in between and making fun of each other for various things......
Me: well let me analyze the situation... if i bring the ice cream i'm pretty much damned because you'll dig in, your trainer will beat your ass and probably my ass too cuz you'll snitch on me... and if i don't bring it i'm damned cuz you'll be wondering where it is and who knows what you might do to me

So I didn't end up bringing ice cream, but I did bring Chinese food. This was the best Chinese food I've had in a long time. I'm not usually a fan of Chinese food. I had steamed rice and mushroom chicken. Got to his place without the ice cream and it was ok. He was busy installing Windows Vista on his Macbook Pro.

We ate in the office because he wanted to keep the dog out of the living room, so we all piled in the office and watched the computer screen on his other computer and ate. It was good stuff.

He kept having problems with drivers on the mac not working on Vista. He spent a good 5 hours troubleshooting that and I sat there next to him, we were flirting and chatting about nothing in particular. I do remember talking about computers, food, hot guys, and the like.

We finally settled down about 10p.m. for some "Law and Order"... 2 episodes. Then we watched some "Chelsea Lately" and The Guy realized I don't find it as funny as he does, but it is all good. Fun times.

Finally at 1:00a.m. I said I'm going to take off. He said I don't have to and I said I'm tired and have to drive home. He told me that I'm free to crash there anytime- no big deal. I kind of assumed that, but him telling me was awesome.

Watch out cause here's my ringtone

I love Alvin and the Chipmunks, so what did I do? I made this my cell phone ringtone I'm embarassed to admit. The ringtone has gotten good reception so far though, and everyone thinks it is cute:


While looking for the theme song the other night I ran across this and was slightly disturbed... the chipmunks do other songs like Umbrella by Rhianna, Smack That, and Soulja Boy.

An update on a bunch of things...

As I type this, I'm sitting in the living room. I was watching TV and my mom hijacked the TV. She put on QVC, more specifically Joan Rivers jewelry. That's the only reason my mom watches QVC. Does my mom actually buy any of Joan Rivers' stuff? No, and that is probably a good thing since some of the pieces are probably as plastic as Joan herself is. I plan on going in my bedroom soooooon.

- Last day of class with sexy professor. Today he wore a black suit because he had a gig this afternoon. He was so hot in a suit, but then he took the jacket off and he had a huge obvious bulge in the front of his pants. His ass looked great in the pants too. He didn't wear a tie though- instead he left the top 3-4 buttons undone on his cream colored dress shirt showing off his hot chest.

- Sexy professor gave me an "A" in the class. YAY! He told me I don't have to take the final. He is writing me a letter of recommendation. He told me if I ever need anything to hit him up on myspace.

- I find at work my friendship with B is waning. It is a combination of things. I was tired of her constant complaining about school and she only im'd me when she wanted something. Eventually I just ignored her IM's. I was picking on her at work about a month back, which is not out of the ordinary for me to do and teasing her about being short. She is about 5'4''. I apologized and she told me height was a sensitive subject to her and she said she accepted the apology. Ok, yet when other people tease her it is no big deal. I don't know why she got mad at me for this one instance. Anyways, at work there isn't tension- we're not there on the same days, but when we see each other it is not like before where we'd say hello, ask what each other are doing, etc. etc. I find myself getting close to the "lesbian lovers" as we call them, D and N who are permanently attached together.

- Everyday my sister seems to hit a new low. The other night we were getting allergy shots and my mom saw a friend of her's. We were sitting in the waiting room talking. Her son was entering into a program my sister was in in high school. My mom was saying how it is a good program for this and that reason. My sister couldn't keep her mouth shut and she kept jumping in, talking over my mom, and stuff like that. I was so embarrassed that she did that. But oh well, it wasn't me, so I'm not going to worry. I only spoke when needed and didn't talk over anyone else. My sister thinks she is the expert in every field or something. We're not related.

- Dude, I'm getting another computer... and no I'm not getting a Dell. Dell is sending me a replacement computer, which I plan to sell, then buy a Mac. My mommy rallied for my dad to say we can get me a Mac.

- Told my parents I want concert tickets for Christmas to see Daughtry/BonJovi in February. My mom asked if I had anyone to go with me and if I don't, she volunteered. My mom has never listened to either... haha.

Hung out with The Guy last night. He was chatting with me on IM and I told him I was starving. He told me to come over and bring mint and chip and vanilla ice cream with chocolate fudge. I said ok and he said he'd make lasagna. Sounded good. I get over to his house and we play some EQ2 then take a break for the ice cream. No, he didn't make the lasagna, so I ate hash browns (that I ate at home) and ice cream for dinner.

Aaron called (a friend of The Guy's who seems like a nice guy that I may try to go clubbing with). I was telling The Guy earlier I thought I saw Aaron at the mall. I texted Aaron to see if it was him- it wasn't. The Guy said I did and that he was the one who gave me the blowjob at the mall under the stall. I laughed and said yep, it was good and that he gave a great blowjob. The Guy invited Aaron over, but he didn't want to come.

Then we played EQ2 more. I got used to playing my warlock that I was having a hard time reverting back to my monk that I kept dying and The Guy was too. He seemed upset and I don't blame him, so we had a few arguments.

It was all good though. We made up and he sat with his feet on me watching "Law and Order." We watched 2 episodes and I left about 10:30.

Went to the bathroom before I left and The Guy hopped into bed. We made some small talk and then he joked around that I know how to kill him after watching "Law and Order." I said oh yeah and then gave him a rub on the back to say bye.

- I'm loving this cold weather. It was 40 when I was coming home from The Guy's house last night. I love bundling up. It was so nice and cozy with the heater on in my car. It did get down to 31 last night. That is below freezing.



- Got a funny voice mail from The Guy today. He was telling me how I need a more personal voice mail greeting rather than "hello __phone number___ is not available. Please leave a message after the tone." The Guy was telling me how it needs to be more personal. I called him and told him I like it being nice and generic, but if I could make a voicemail message specifically for The Guy, I would. He texted me back "smart ass."

Words hurt

Even though you might loathe someone and try to ignore everything they say, it is hard. Words hurt. Being told you're a lazy ass, have your head so far up your ass that you can't see the lights of day, how rude I am, how hurtful I am, and all of the things I don't do hurts. In reality, that is far from the truth. She is 600 miles away. She doesn't know half of the story. She may visit once a year. It really hurts because she is family. She doesn't know what I do daily for myself and everyone else. I should be able to say it is just an e-mail and click delete, but I can't. I do have to read the e-mails because my aunt only talks to me in the family, and I just know to brace myself and try to ignore all of the putdowns and thing of all the good things that I do for not only myself, but have done for my grandma, and everyone else.

The only good that comes out of this I guess is that it causes me to become more overly cautious at what I say to people. I try to be more sympathetic and not offend.