Monday, December 10, 2007

Not knowing when and lunch with Gonzo

Went over to The Guy's about 4:30p.m. yesterday when he called me asking if I wanted to play EQ2. I said sure. We played on my new character and I went from being level 5 to 12. We played for about 5 hours. We took a break to have vegetable lasagna, which was actually pretty good. It wasn't like eew nasty, vegetables, but it was just kind of lighter and more airy as far as substance in comparison to regular lasagna.

We took a couple breaks where he called Microsoft because he got a new hard drive and needed to activate Windows Vista. It was fun watching him do that. He had to give the activation code to the computer and he kept using different voices. He sounded British once, then Indian, then Mexican, and stuff like that. I was cracking up sitting in the chair next to him. Also during this break we took his dog out and it was cold outside. Cold as in 45 degrees. I felt bad for The Guy who was only in shorts and a t-shirt. I was cold in a t-shirt, a pullover, and jeans. Typical Californian... haha.

During our second break, I was standing behind him as he was looking at the TV. He asked what I wanted to do. I said I didn't care, but I was standing close to him hoping to hint at what I wanted. Yes, it has been a couple weeks since we fooled around, so I was in the mood. He said he didn't have anything in particular in mind. Then he turned around and he said we could mess around a little bit. I enthusiastically agreed.

He put his dog in the kennel, then shut the door to his bedroom. We went in and cuddled for a brief second before he pushed me down to his cock. I sucked on him while he had his hand down my pants squeezing my butt. I began to undo my belt and he helped. He took my cock out, lubed it up, and began stroking it. I was afraid I'd shoot quickly after not jacking off for days because I haven't had time or haven't been in the mood. I was ok though focusing on his cock and sucking on his balls. Then he pushed me over and we grinded for a while. While we were doing this, he was sucking, licking, and biting my ears. He wasn't biting hard, but just enough to turn me on like you would not believe. My ears are such an erogenous zone- I seriously could have well shot my load I think if he kept it up (I can't believe I just said that.) The Guy asked me during all of this if I like coming over not knowing when and if we're going to have sex. I said yes. He asked why and so on. He wanted the answer because he owns me... haha.

Afterward, we went out and he laid on the couch with his feet on me. I was thinking of leaving since it was about 10:30, but he said to stay. I was pretty tired, and who could resist when he is just so sexy, but also he was trying to make me feel guilty saying I didn't like him anymore. He said it was alright, he saw how it was. He talked me into it. We watched the "Jennifer Lately" show on Tivo. Then we watched an episode of "Law and Order." Then finally I said I had to leave at 11:15 or so because I was very tired and I was. I came home and fell right asleep once I was in the bed, which is unusual for me.

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I was unusually excited when I went to work today mainly because I knew Gonzo and I would be alone. I had some teasers for her about my weekend. I'm like I had a great weekend with The Guy. She was upset I wouldn't spill the beans there at work. I said I'd tell her at lunch. At lunch we went to Subway and I told her about spending time with The Guy last night and more or less gave her the details. She said she was impressed and could tell I truly had a good time. She was very inquisitive and had lots of questions including from last week when I told her that I had spent the night at The Guy's house. She was asking, "so do you guys share a bed?" and stuff like that. I am loving being able to tell her all of this!

Saturday, December 8, 2007

Night with Louis and The Guy

Talked to The Guy through IM and by phone a couple times yesterday. He told me to come over and play. I said I will when I finish my final.

Got over to his place about 5:20p.m. He had told me earlier he was going to try to get Louis (his Christian friend who is a couple years older than me and has a hard time admitting he is gay... also one guy I've had a threesome with) to come over to play. Louis started making excuses, but was in the area, so came over.

He was cranky and tired, The Guy was egging him on and making things worse, but it was funny. We hung around in the computer room and talked about random stuff and then set Louis up in the game.

We tried to order Charo Chicken for dinner, but they changed their menu and don't offer sides in the combos anymore, so The Guy said no. Louis said he was craving Chinese food, so Louis drove and we went to the Chinese food place. There were about 10 people ahead of us and not wanting to wait, The Guy opted for Mexican food. That sounded much better in my mind. While waiting for the food we went to CVS for drinks, then got the food and went back to The Guy's place. We sat on the couch eating and watching "Law and Order."

Then we went back into the office and Louis sat up his character. I made a new character and The Guy did as well. We went around killing stuff and then met up with Louis in the game. I like the whole multi-player aspect of this and that The Guy is much more willing to play with me in this game. Louis wanted to leave about 8:30 because he was so tired.

The Guy and I took a break and went out to the living room to watch more "Law and Order." He snuggled where I usually sit on the couch with his dog under the cover. Then about 9:30 The Guy and I were in a snacky mood. Donuts sounded good, but we opted for something healthier. This meant a trip to CVS where we got pretzels. It was funny when we were there- the girl behind the counter was arguing with The Guy about stuff and had a rebuttal for every argument he made like he doesn't need a CVS card since she has too many. The girl behind the counter said, well what's one more? It was funny.

We went back and ate the pretzels, The Guy laid his legs on my lap and we continued our "Law and Order" marathon. About 11:30 I was tired and The Guy was too. He ran into bed and I got my computer to leave. I was surprised he was already in bed, so I went in and thanked him for the evening, then rubbed his arm and locked the door on my way out.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Finding out about each other

Since Gonzo has found out about my bisexuality, our relationship has changed. We were close before, but now we're even closer and are talking about things like sex.

Met her at Jack in the Box tonight for dinner at 9p.m. We talked about why I was so ticked off when she pulled up and she saw me really upset in the car talking to The Guy on the phone about my computer and my dad.

Anyways, we got our orders and the first thing she wanted to know about was what I have done with The Guy. I texted her the other night telling her I was with him, but didn't give details. I said we ate and hung out playing computer games. She asked if there was more. I said yes. There was kissing, making out, and that was about it. She accepted that response.

The conversation then detoured to cute guys and do I think I'm really bisexual, confused, or what. I said no, bisexual. If you guys don't recall my purpose of telling her bisexual is because she knows several of my friends and so it was done for safety reasons. I know however now, I could definitely trust her to keep it a secret. Maybe when time changes I'll tell her I'm gay. She says for now she'll accept I'm bisexual because I haven't really explored with women.

She asked who knows out of my friends and I said she was the first. She was happy that she was the first person I told. She wanted to know why I haven't told other friends and if they'd be alright. I told her which ones would be alright and which ones wouldn't- she pretty much agreed. She asked if my parents knew and I said NO. I said my dad would probably be ok with it, but my mom wouldn't. She was surprised and thought it would be the other way around because she sees what a loving person my mom is. That is quite true, but then there is the whole Christianity issue which was Gonzo's next question. She said she understands and is surprised. She said her parents would pretty much be ok with it, but it would take time. I told her when I might consider coming out and stuff like that. She asked if I felt constrained because my parents don't know. I told her how I've lied and I explained my excuses. She said that she does that too and completely understands. She asked what if I found myself in a relationship how I'd handle it since my parents don't know. I told her I'd play it by ear and probably continue hiding it. I hide The Guy pretty well as it is; while we're not dating I'm constantly making up excuses about going over to his place and am on the phone with him a lot.

She then asked me how far I'd gone with a guy and I said kissing. She said I know you've done more since you've spent the night at The Guy's house, which she found out Saturday morning when I didn't text her and tell her what I was doing with The Guy. I wanted her to know I spent the night though, so it was all in the plan. (None of this stuff did occur this past weekend, though, for those of you keeping track- I don't want everything to sound like a contradiction).

She said she'd tell me what she has donee with her boyfriend and stuff like that if I'd say what I'd done. She has never done anal/vaginal with her boyfriend because she is scared, but they have done other things. So then I opened up and said I've made out and fondled, jacked off, etc. with The Guy. I never mentioned oral. I didn't say I've done anal or any of that because that would be quite a step in just a week. She asked if I would do anal with The Guy and I said I could see myself doing it with him because I feel comfortable with him and I feel a connection, which is what is very important to me. I don't want to be having anonymous, random sex. We talked about my first kiss with a guy and I was drawing a blank. I knew The Guy was not my first kiss, and for the record, it was January 13, 2007 with a kid at my college.

From there, we talked about her job at the fitness center. She told me about a fight between a salesperson and a trainer at the gym tonight where police were called. I wanted to know which trainer, but she wouldn't tell me. I'll find out sooner or later, though. We showed each other pictures on our phones and talked about school, kissing up to teachers, stuff like that.

All in all a good evening. I learned a lot- about a different side of Gonzo I never saw. I never knew she had done what she has with her boyfriend.

Paranoia about excuses continues

I've blogged about this before, but I'm getting uncomfortable about it again. We know that I don't exactly tell my parents the truth when I'm going out. I'll say I'm going to hang out with Steve or Mike or something along those lines.

Last Friday night I told my parents I was going over to Steve's (codename for The Guy). I didn't call and tell my parents I was spending the night. It was 1:30a.m. when I was asked to stay the night and I figured everyone would be asleep. I just figured I'd call my dad Saturday morning and tell him I stayed the night because it was late. He said he figured and had no problem with it. My mom seemed a little more resilient to the fact that I spent the night at a friend's house, but she said it was probably better that I did because it was raining and foggy Friday night.

Saturday and Sunday I was out with The Guy, or Steve.

Last night I went over to The Guy's house. We had just finished dinner at home and I sort of lied and said I'm going out with Melissa to Panera for dinner and to talk. I said I'd be home late. My mom responded with "which girlfriend is that?" I explained how I knew Melissa and left it at that. I got home at 11:15 after everyone was in bed. My dad asked me this afternoon if I had a good time at dinner and said that there must have been other things going on for dinner to take 4 hours. I said it was fine, we just sat around talking. He knows I wasn't doing exactly what I said and I can accept that. As I've said before he'll be the parent who is more accepting of my orientation. He also knows my mother and her worry, which is why I make excuses.

Tonight I'm going out to dinner with Gonzo at 8:30 or 9p.m. I called my dad on the way home from school and told him I'm going out with Gonzo. He laughed and said ok. He said that's a bit late, but he was joking. My mom said, "oh, so now it is your girlfriend Gonzo tonight" and made fun of me because I'm going to eat 2 dinners. I ate a small dinner- just some of the meat we had for dinner and will eat a full meal when Gonzo and I go out.

My going out as I have mentioned before has been a perpetual thing since March/April of this year, so my parents should be used to it more or less. I just get tired of lying, worrying my parents will find out that I'm lying about where I'm going and that they'll lose trust in me. I hate the fact that I'm so "open" about where I'm going with my parents and check in with them and tell them what's going on. I get worried that I'll have to one day explain a lie and then come out to my parents. I try to avoid this by saying I am going to a male friend's house (Steve and Steve does live over near The Guy), so this helps me sort of justify everything if I were to get into an accident or something going or coming home. I think by now my parents are used to the fact when I say "I'm going out," it'll be 10:30 or 11 before I get home. I get the feeling my parents think I'm out doing other things like having sex or other things like that. While that is not far from the truth, I hate it because my mom teaches health, my mom's religious stance, and stuff like that. It just makes me feel uneasy having to lie and not telling the truth.

I hate the fact I am over 18, but am still bound to home in so many ways.

He talked me into going

Got a bunch of text messages and calls from The Guy yesterday telling me about things he heard on TV that he was concerned about. He wanted to make sure I didn't have a heart defibrilator in me because there is some model of those being recalled. He's a nut! Called him on my way home from school and left a voice mail. He texted me a couple more times and I told him I was going to stay in and write a paper about my internship. He told me to come over and do it. I was a sucker and went over about 7p.m..

... and I got my paper done! The Guy was playing EQ2 on the computer. We talked, watched TV, and stuff like that. I wrote my paper and we made small talk in between. We watched wrestling and talked about the hot wrestlers on TV.

About 8:30p.m. I went to Bakers Square to get him dinner. He wanted a southwestern burger on ciabatta with no tortilla chips. They were out of ciabatta, so a regular bun would suffice I told the waitress. I snuck over and bought The Guy energy drinks with his ATM card (haha- he gave it to me) at the liquor store. I got back to pick up the food and went back to his place.

The Guy opened the food and there was a bacon cheeseburger on TOAST. No joke. Doesn't that sound disgusting? ON TOAST! The Guy got pissed off and said he was going to call Bakers Square, so he did. Then we went over and had them make the burger over again. The manager offered us pie, but he should have really offered to give us the burger for free because that's the 2nd time they've had a big mess up like that.

Anyways, we get back to his place and joke around about the sandwich. Then we play EQ2 for a few minutes. I leave about 10:30.

I made it home at 11:15. I hit road construction and it took 45 minutes instead of 30. That wasn't cool, especially cuz I was real tired last night.

Monday, December 3, 2007

More on the weekend with The Guy

Spent most of Saturday afternoon/night back at The Guy's place playing more EQ2. I brought Bakers Square hamburgers for dinner. About 6:30p.m. The Guy was tired and I was too, so we laid down together on his bed and napped. We were woken up at 7:30 by his mom calling to see how The Guy was. He didn't answer. Instead he wanted to read and asked me if I'd go into the closet in the office and get The Master's Manual. He scanned through the pages and I read over his shoulder. Then He had to get ready at 8:00p.m. to go to dinner with a friend, so I left about then and made it home at 9p.m. That's a decent hour.

Sunday at 9:00a.m. I began receiving phone calls and text messages from The Guy. I told him my plan was to Christmas shop. He said I needed to come over. I said we'll see if I get around to it. Lots of texts ensued while I was out. Finally I told him about 3p.m. I was at Target. He had me bring him some Quakes, salt and vinegar potato chips, and Smart water. I brought that over and we played some more EQ2. The server crashed several times, so instead we just hung out on the couch watching TV and playing around online. I had to leave about 7p.m. to come home and do some homework. Homework was a disappointing way to end the weekend. Oh well... life goes on...

Saturday, December 1, 2007

EQ2 and spent the night together

The Guy called me about 8p.m. last night and I went over to his place to play EQ2. I was so bored at home. I was crawling walls. I have been at home all week sleeping trying to get over my tonsillitis. Finally started feeling better Thursday.

Got to The Guy's place about 8:30. He started a new character and was in the same area as me. That meant we could play with each other and I wouldn't be lonely. I was a higher level, so that was awesome in my mind... boosted my ego. We ran around doing quests and killing creatures. Ran around with The Guy's friend Mike for a few hours killing stuff also.

It was so pleasant just playing. I was really enjoying his company on the couch. He had the patio door open all evening and it was relaxing to watch the rain come down and hear it. We did get 1.75'' of rain!!! YAY!!! I LOVE RAIN!!!

At 1:30a.m. we call it a night. The Guy then asks if I want to do something really dirty and I asked what he meant. He then yelled DONUTS! I said those sounded good. We went to YumYum Donuts for DONUTS. I've never had donuts with The Guy before so I didn't know his methodology in ordering. He buys a dozen with sprinkles and various other toppings, then he only eats the topping off. I ordered a glazed donut, which sounded good. Anyways, we get in the car, open the donuts, then he goes to work eating the tops off on each one. It was hilarious. We get back and pull in the driveway, then he finishes eating the tops of all the donuts. When he is done with that, he runs and throws all the bottoms of the donuts and the box in the dumpster.

We get back to his place and he asks if I'm ready for bed. I say yes. We go and get in his bed. He asks me if I'm going to wear my new GAP sweater, which looks really sexy on me I might add, to bed. I say yes, but end up taking it off when I realized he meant that we're going to spend the night. We laid pretty close together and by morning he was facing me and had his left arm over me. That felt so awesome to wake up to him hugging me like that with his arm over me. At 7:30 he asks if I'm awake and I say yes.

We get up and play around on EQ2 and I make level 16 before having to leave to meet my parents and mom's friend for breakfast.

I'll probably be back over at The Guy's later... YAY!!!