Why is he still staying?

The Guy promised he'd treat me to dinner one night this week for taking him to the airport and picking him up this past week. We were planning on Friday, but I didn't hear from him so I texted him Friday afternoon to see if we were going to Saturday. He said we were going to hang Saturday afternoon. He texts me a good morning in the morning, a few texts back and forth, and we agree on 4p.m.

I get to his place at 4p.m. as the workers are finishing most of the tile near the front door. I make my way in to the office where THe Guy is playing WOW. We chat about our day, our week, and stuff like that. We hang there for 45 minutes or so until he says we have to go get the dogs. The tile guys are finishing up. They are done for the day, so he locks up, and we drive to get the dogs. On the way we talk about my bedroom and we are in agreeance that candle sconces are nice, maybe some nice artwork, but again, we don't know what. We may visit Target.

We get to the doggy daycare and The Guy's husky has blood on him. It turns out it is from another dog that got into something it shouldn't. The Guy said it wasn't a big deal. He asked the worker at the counter how her Saturday was going, and she could barely talk. She nearly broke down in tears. She finally got it out that her 5 month old puppy died this past week. She lives with her boyfriend's parents, and they kept the dog in his kennel with his food, and his stomach was bloated. The Guy told the girl at the counter that he was so sorry and if there was anything she needed to give him a call. We left and both felt bad for the girl and then having to be around the other dogs, and probably thinking about hers. We drove back and The Guy tried to call in the sushi order. The place opened at 5. It was 5:20, so he dials, but they don't pick up. He dials back close to 10 times and waits probably a good 2 dozen rings each time before he gets someone. He then asks why they took so long to pick up the phone, and it turns out they were taking reservations and couldn't answer the phone. The Guy tells me we're going to pick Casey up too. I knew that since they were texting earlier. The Guy tells me about Josh on the way. The Guy's friend Joe is on a soccer team, and apparently Josh is too, now. Josh and Joe talked. Joe never brought The Guy up, nor did Josh, which kind of hurt The Guy that Josh didn't. As the two of them were talking, Josh's female friend, his best friend, who is married that he is banging came up and told Joe that he was fat and had gained a lot of weight since he stopped working out at her gym. I was astounded he said that. Joe is the argumentative type, and thankfully replied back that he was busy getting his PHD, going to school and working full time, maybe he has a life outside the gym. Props to him! But I guess that pretty much ended the conversation.

We get to Casey's house and The Guy's dog is growling at Casey's cat, which is pretty funny since he is outside of the car. Casey gets in and is stuck in the back with the dogs. He is on his phone texting, talking about a guy he is sort of dating. This same thing happened the last time in the car where he got in and would talk about other guys he was dating or getting fucked by. I was kind of turned off by that because who does that? The Guy goes in to get the sushi and Casey and I hang out in the car. Driving back to The Guy's place the topic of older guys came up and my Target Date disaster came up. The Guy told Casey about it, and somehow I bring up that the crazy worked at Disneyland. It turns out Casey does too, and wanted to know the crazy date's name. I told him, and he knew who I was talking about. He has 2 friends who dated this guy and said that he was very out there as far as being scary, doing outrageous things, and being inappropriate for a first date. I understand.

Inside the house we cordon off a space so the dogs can't go on the tile and enter through the living room door instead of the main door. We cordon off the living room and kitchen so there is only access to the bathroom, bedroom, and office. I joke that using the dog bed is not a good barricade for the dogs because they'll knock it over and sure enough, THe Guy's husky knocked it down almost immediately. They calm down and come hang out by our feet once we gather in the office. We debated whether to eat the sushi, the 3 of us, on The Guy's bed, but decide to eat at the desk in the office. We joke about possibly playign musical chairs, although The Guy is selfish because I was left sitting on the amp far away from the sushi. I probably have 7-8 pieces of the various types from the tuna roll, salmon, peppered salmon, shrimp roll, and more. I tried to sample everything this time. After eating The Guy and Casey start playing WOW. The Guy put on Lady Antebellum's new CD that he downloaded so that I wasn't so bored and had somethign to listen to. Casey and I were again being argumentative about everything. If he said something was blue, I said it was green. We argued about everything it seemed. The Guy joked that we needed to calm down, love, and he was going to break us up. It was all in good fun, though. I decided I'd get my computer after a while and I could possibly join in on the fun. I go through the many updates and then come to discover that it would not work because The Guy never kept the account I was using activated. We talked about my internet issues and how I will never play WOW at home because of that.



The Guy wants to go in the jacuzzi and invites both of us out about 8p.m. I go with him because I thought Casey might go, but also I wanted to chat with The Guy. I could sense he was bothered by something. We get out to the jacuzzi and he starts off- he is bothered- he kind of likes Casey, Casey will text him saying he is horny, come over, then not be. The Guy has to always pick Casey up since he doesn't have a car, then Casey is always texting, texting other guys at that, and talking about guys he is chasing and guys fucking him. The Guy talked about how he keeps letting people walk all over him like that. He talked about how he was bothered by Matt who texted him the other night he was so horny, yet came over and was just as tired as when we played. He said he needs to reevaulate guys and how it is not fair to him. I agreed. I was going to bring this Casey thing up to him because I know Casey is the kind The Guy likes, and I realized after talking to blogger JC on the internet when WOW wouldn't work for me. The Guy is attracted to Casey because he is young, needs help, and a few other things that causes The Guy to come in, fill that void, and makes The Guy feel good. I was just bothered because of the fact he talked so openly about other guys. The Guy tells me we would hang out again today or tomorrow, but he really wanted Casey to just go, and if I'd say about 11p.m. I just had to go, so Casey would get the hint and leave. I said sure. We talk about The Guy and his weight issues. He is lacking motivation to keep the weight off without Josh in his life. He tells me about how great the Utah trip was, the guy he met on that, and how his mom paid for the entire trip, including his snowboard lessons. It was a good chat.



We go back in and I play around on Grindr since WOW didn't work. The Guy hears the little Grindr message sound and asks me who I'm chatting, then he logs on. We take a few minutes to show each other hot and not so hot guys. Casey is still engrossed in the game. The two of them play and THe Guy buys Casey some weapon , and they play for about another hour. The Guy then announces he is heading to bed and is tired. The Guy turns on the heat, waits around for Casey to make an attempt to leave, and then heads to bed. It was about 15 minutes before Casey was finally ready to leave. I agreed to take Casey back home since he was on my way. In the car we chat about him working for Disney, the Disney gay guys who work there, and other random little things. It was midnight when I got home.

Foot fetish buys me shoes

Foot Fetish has been talking about buying me new shoes for the longest time. I tried to stop him, but he did. He had them shipped to my house via amazon, and a gift note that said he was going to find a way to get me shoes. I called him and told him I'll treat him to dinner as a thank you. It'll probably be near his Spring Break since he is so busy with school trying to create an iPhone app and some other random stuff for classes.


Accompanied with pics since I guess it didn't upload right... Thanks Bruce for pointing it out!

Avon lady

I had just settled down for a nice slumber at about 11:10, I'm in my bed ready to fall asleep when the dang Avon lady calls at 11:23. I am annoyed because who the hell calls the home phone after 9p.m.? We haven't had a call after 9p.m. in months, and the last time I think was probably when my grandma died. I was almost kind of worried when we got this call tonight.I get up to see that it says Carla the Bitchy Avon Lady and realize I need to take care of this.

I spring over to the phone, pick up the receiver, and the conversation goes like this:

Me: You rang?
Carla The Bitchy Avon Lady: Um, well, um, yes, hello, is your mom around?
Me: It is 11:23p.m.
Carla: Well, um, is she home?
Me: Shouldn't you be asleep like most normal people?
Carla: Young man, I am not going to stand for this and let you insult me. Is your mom home?
Me: It was only too easy to do (insult her). Um. No.
Carla: Oh, I forgot your mom goes to bed early.
Me: I thought so. (I hang up the receiver.)

By this time my parents are up, sister is still awake, and my dad is cussing my mom for letting this woman call so late, and how much he hates the woman.

I swear, this woman is so annoying. She gets up at like 2p.m. and goes to bed at 5a.m. or so. She is this old woman constantly complaining about this and that, and her life is so bad, and she needs to go pray this and that that her life will get better. This woman is one of those psycho religious people. She calls and leaves messages on our answering machine that says she is going to church to pray for her plumbing because her toilet is backed up and wouldn't be home if my mom were going to stop by to pick up her Avon. Personally I understand her dilemma- she is full of shit- and well, if it keeps her from calling us, go and pray, by all means. She's too much. The woman just sets me off.

Oh, and it probably didn't help she was at Kaiser when I was today getting her allergy shot also. She asked me to give my mom an Avon book and I remarked something along the lines of I was not her slave, and if she wanted to give it to my mom, she should do it herself.

Yeah, I have a mean side.

Bible ringing bell guy

This guy stands from about 12p.m. to 4p.m. or so daily at various points along the highway that I live off of wearing brown overalls with a white shirt or a black suit with white gloves ringing a bell and holding what I presume to be a Bible. He also always has a walking stick.

My life is more complete- room edition

I found a pillow that I like finally. My dad and I went to Kaiser with my mom to get the H1N1 vaccine yesterday. My mom had plans with Linda, so we drove separately. I conned him into going to the mall with me. I told him I wanted to go to Macys and look at pillows once we were there. I basically just went, picked out one that looked firm and expensive, and voila, a nice new $120 (BUT it was $60 on sale) Charter Club Damask Dot pillow. I slept well on it last night. Yay.

I also found a couple new accessories for my bedroom in my neverending quest to decorate my room. I want to buy some black curtains for both windows. I added a black bed skirt and black rug to the area to unify it over the past couple days. I still want a nice photo or artwork for the wall to the side of my bed.

Fixtures, sex, and sleeping

headed over to The Guy's at 3:30 Thursday. He took the day off work and I had just finished tutoring. He had originally told me to come over about 8, but we know 8 really means 3.

When I arrived the construction workers had just left. The Guy was playing Everquest on the computer. He did that for about an hour I'd guess before we had to go get the dogs. In the car on the way, it was quiet. He told me about how he was staying in the most expensive hotel, he rented a condo for 2 nights to snowboard, and to board the dogs cost more, but he talked his mom into paying. We get the dogs, confirm the plans with the girl who was running the daycare to have the dogs boarded for the weekend, and take off. The Guy tells me how he has an urge to call Josh. I just said no, Josh is over. We instead discuss his new plan for the bathroom- he is replacing the tub insert with a new one- thank goodness- his other plan was bad, and I told him that on Tuesday. He told me he has the tile plan worked out in the bathroom, which is much better than his plan from the other day.

Back at the house he plays some EQ2 while waiting for the tile and granite cutter to come. I hang out in the office with the dogs while he is here, which is about an hour. I kill time on my phone.

We snack on a sandwich that he bought from Trader Joes for each of us. Mine was a roast beef wrap. His was an Asian wrap. We do some tidying up in the office, then he decides we should go swim. He had told me that earlier. I knew he just wanted to get out. We go up to the country club and check in. We change in the locker room. We go out to the cold pool. I do pretty well. I can swim about half of the olympic sized pool before my arms get tired. I wish I were a better swimmer. You'd think I'd have better strength up there given that I work out. Oh well. I was really having a hard time after my 3rd lap in the pool. My arms were tired and I stopped in the middle of the pool and just wanted to stop. I was panting and working myself up into an asthma attack. I was having a hard time breathing being there in the middle of the pool. I really tried my best to take deep breaths, catch my breath, and then made it back to the original side. I gave up while The Guy did another lap back and forth. I just worked at catching my breath. My chest felt tight. I think part of it was my sort of anxiety with water. I was never a great swimmer, and don't remember the swimming techniques from swimming lessons when I was a kid.

We go into the hot tub and The Guy tells me "he's going to call him (Josh)," and I said "no." We discuss random stuff- how nice the bathroom will now look. He tells me how he thinks he needs a digital medicine cabinet that has a display of everything inside, and he talked about all the computer equipment needed to do that, and how it wouldn't be hard. I tell him about my neighbors putting a 24'' TV in their bathroom with Direct TV, but how they left wiring everywhere. He brings up the topic of speakers somehow, and I remind him that he is supposed to hook me up with his speaker guy to tell me what to get for my car. He said he thought he had promised me speakers. I told him no, just need to know what to get. He said that I should make an appointment, then he relented after talking it through, and said that he will probably be upgrading his stereo with some new amp or something, so he would give me that stuff, and I would just have to pay for installation, or something like that. He reminded me how he likes to give stuff to friends who will get value out of his old stuff that really isn't old.

On the way back, The Guy tells me that this week has been really hard. He is still not over Josh. He was being very serious and talked about how if Josh were gay, he probably wouldn't treat The Guy any better. He talked about how he is hurt that Josh can just block him out of his life. He talked about how that isn't the case with us, and we constantly have that urge to call each other. He said he has the urge to call Josh and it is only a matter of time before he slips. He then turns into a joking mood and asks what I would do if he did. He asked if we had a Law & Order thing going on and I said we would, then he determined the only way they'd find I was the one who disposed of The Guy was through my semen because semen never lies... lol... but I'm not going to do that...

We get back in time to have a few more bites of our sandwich, then his friend Matt showed up at 10p.m. I met Matt, and I think he was the last guy I had a threesome with- the last time I had one with The Guy. He had asked me earlier in the night if I was comfortable with it, and I said yes.

The Guy feeds the dogs, and his new husky is taking forever to eat. Matt and I stand around watching. Matt looks like he is falling asleep. The Guy suggests we go in and undress. We go in his bedroom, lock the door, and then undress. Matt is at the foot of the bed and I'm at the side. It could have been hot where we undressed each other. Once we're both undressed I am the aggressive one and move over and put my arm on his chest, then start making out with him. The Guy comes in shortly after and jokes there isn't much action going on. I move down to Matt's dick and suck him while The Guy is leaning over Matt having him suck him. The Guy puts a condom on, lubes up, and comes down to where I am at the foot of the bed sucking Matt and starts getting ready to fuck me. I am nervous as I haven't been fucked since like May or June I think it was (off the top of my head) and am hoping it isn't too painful. It isn't too bad. I suck Matt while being fucked and then The Guy moves on to fuck Matt who is laying on his back. He fucks Matt hard- the bed was moving so fast and loudly. We reposition ourselves and Matt and I begin making out and feeling each other up. The Guy has to piss, so he does that. I tell Matt during this time to lay on me, and he does. The Guy comes back with a condom and lubes it up and tells Matt to ride me. He does this for maybe 30 seconds, but it felt good. The Guy fucks me again as I lay on my back next to Matt, then flips me over and I'm on my stomach. He fucks me much harder than I remember, and it almost hurts. He stops when I'm moaning and groaning really loudly. Thankfully. Matt is fading fast, so The Guy decides to call it a night while we are still ahead. Matt tries to jack off, but gives up. I jack myself off, then join The Guy in the shower.

The Guy orders his bathroom fixtures after the shower on Home Depot's website. He talks about how everyone said this project has doubled in price- everyone said it would cost about, but it doubled because he buys top quality, top of the line everything. He talked about how he always buys the best. After ordering the parts, he plays some EQ2 again. I'm annoyed as it is getting really late, and he wants to game. He does this for like 15-20 minutes, then I think he got my point that I was annoyed as I kept getting up to go to the bathroom, get a drink, etc. He decided he should pack. I help him gather everything. He takes a bunch of t-shirts, 1 pullover sweater, his ski jacket and pants, and tons of t-shirts, and a few pairs of jeans. I joke how he packs so heavily. Seriously, I am the lightest packer, but I'm always overprepared. And I don't necessarily feel he was well prepared for Utah's 35 degree weather for the next few days. We probably spend an hour getting all of his clothes, software, and everything ready to go. Then he has to download an alarm to wake us up. He used a computer alarm that is networked to his bedroom speakers, his phone, texted his friend Dan to call us, and had me set my alarm. Overkill much? He said he was the kind of guy to sleep through alarms. I laughed. I couldn't. He also set the alarm for 4a.m., which when we were getting to bed at 1 was not cool. I thought it was a little early, but I was thinking about me in any case- I have my clothes already laid out and it is a matter of throwing them on and putting everything in the car, but not The Guy. He had to play around in bed with the dogs, shower, make sure he had everything, put on moisturizer cream, pick up dirty clothes around the house, and inject himself with his hormone thing.

It was nice laying next to him in bed. I slept on the left and he slept on the right side. His dog got the middle, but there was some shifting and adjusting. The Guy ended up next to me, which I liked because it just felt more intimate. I probably took an hour to get to sleep, then slept really light, as The Guy and his dog both snore. We woke up to the Glee Soundtrack playing "Don't Stop Believing," and The Guy sprouted up in bed acting the song out. It was hilarious. We sang as he showered and made little dance moves.



AND this song sounds incredible on The Guy's stereo system. I wish I could mimic it with my computer. Dang. I do have to say that was the most unusual, funny sound to wake up to, the whole dunt dun dun dun dun dun dun dun...

I took him to the airport at 4:45 and we arrived about 5:02. On the way there we heard the news on KOLA 99.9, and they did the Pledge of Allegiance after, and sang the National Anthem. He joked how that was a bit much, or something to that effect. I actually burst out into laughter as it was going on. Shame. I'm going to hell, I know. I pull up to the curb, drop him off, and help get his snowboard, laptop, and bag out of the car. I was sad to see him go. As I'm driving back I hear GO COUNTRY 105, KFROG 95.1, and MYFM (I think) do the pledge, as well as sing the National Anthem or Star Spangled Banner. I shoot The Guy a text about how we're unpatriotic or something because I heard it 3 times. He said "lol" and thanked me for taking him.

He's landed in Utah now, and I'm heading to work. I came back to his place to wait for the dog lady to come pick up the dogs.

A regular buddy

While driving home from The Guy's house, I kept thinking how much I miss being with another man. I miss the intimacy, the cuddling, the fondling, and the sex. I wish I had a regular fuck buddy for some safe fun. Someone I feel comfortable with. Someone I am attracted to. Unfortunately I don't really know anyone. .. adam4adam here I come? No... I don't know... just thinking out loud.