Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Instead of being sappy

I know this summer will get to me- free time and my mind wanders, I worry, anxiety kicks in, stuff like that. I know this summer will not be as difficult as last summer just in that our family circumstances are different. Nonetheless, when I'm not keeping busy I think about things like being alone, sex, and end up with anxiety and depressed.

I want to keep myself occupied this summer, so here are some of my goals to keep me occupied:

WANT TO READ:
- Edward Sawtelle
- East of Eden
- Breakfast at Tiffany's
- Caramelo by Sandra Cisneros (en Espanol)
What I want to read: an anthology of short plays perhaps... favorite play of all time "A Doll's House" by Henrick Ibsen

WANT TO WATCH:
- Movies
... vague... I just don't have the attention to sit at home alone and watch a movie... even with friends over...


WANT TO LEARN:
- In Design
- Photoshop
- play around with more tables/charts/other stuff in Microsoft Word, in particular, though I know other programs work better.

WANT TO DO:
- Vacation- see previous post
- Go to San Diego
- Go to LA
- Go to West Hollywood
- Go clubbing with friends
- Go to Disneyland
- Go to Knotts
- Go to Casino Morongo/outlet malls

More to come... but most of all... relax...

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Maybe put a little more effort into finding a LTR, which solves the alone problem and hopefully some of your depression and anxiety.

How are things with Chris?

Aek said...

Quite a number of goals. I hope you meet most/all of them. :)

borg_queen said...

Here are some ways to help with anxiety/depression:

*Vitamin b12
*fish oil
*vitamin E (needed to prevent fish oil from oxidizing rapidly. 400iu for every capsule of fish oil. prefer the natural form)
*sunshine

These are scientifically proven and cheaper, too. And the last one is free. ;) Check for contraindications with meds you're taking.