Bloggy issues

Had a couple posts up about Texting Hottie and I accidentally deleted them when trying to make a blog post. Ugh. Hopefully I can resurrect them. I think I wrote them in Word? We'll see, if so, I'll repost.

Texting Hottie is definitely a winner in summation.

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Carl continues... I am not replying...

His message to me on myspace today:

Re: No response

I wish it wasn't that way, but i didn't see anything or witness an attempt on your part to save our friendship after this all happened. i was really hurt, i shy'd away because of it. I got nothing from you that seemed like an attempt to want to reconcile it. I wasn't in the wrong (i strongly feel) because i was really hurt by you on my birthday. THREE attempts, failed! Many attempts to communicate with you (via your stupid cell phone), failed! Plus the number of other times we made plans for my birthday that you didn't follow through. Again, I was flexible! And 3 attempts? How many times did he call me guys? And how many times did I say I was flexible? Too many to recall.

At X club, you put your hand on my leg, you show attraction, closeness, interest in me. When we danced, you danced close, got close, even got a hard on a few times! It made me feel good (at the time) but confused me because once we were away from X club- you were distant again. Never asked to come inside after you dropped me off because your bitch ass was too tired. I wanted to suck your dick on the 91 freeway- and you never did let me, and you never wanted to come inside after. Gee, an indication I don't want to that kind of relationship/friendship? Yes, he did ask, and the answer was NO, I am seeing someone.

When I showed interest in you, I followed through! Not just only at X Club! I communicated with you, and showed you my desire to hang out with you and do different things with you, and spend time with you! And not just for sex because you didn't offer it to me!

I've had nothing but mixed signals from you! You seem to want to spend time with me, but when the time comes, something ALWAYS comes up! Your dog swallows a cactus, your dad is in the hospital, your phone is messing up and always dropping calls, you have to go out of town, you all of a sudden have to work late, you have to go to LA on a SATURDAY for class, your parents left something on the porch, you fucking lost your dog, your sister ate a hamburger, your barbecue overfloweth with water..... etc..

You see where I am coming from?

So, where do (or DID) I stand? How flexible are (or were) you?
Does this happen with all your friends, or just me? Were you just attracted in the physical part of our friendship only at X club? Are you physically attracted to all of your friends or just me? I'm confused. I think my friends are a bunch of good looking people... but... umm... what... a little superficial, no?

I wanted your friendship Mike! I wanted whatever we could have had mutually in the friendship! I wanted to spend time with you whenever you were free to do so. I called you! Maybe you called 1 too many times.

So yea, I was very hurt on my birthday! Enough to end a friendship? Not willingly, but with all the mixed signals I was getting, and the feeling that you were not into the friendship as much as I thought, and the flaking out on Dissneyland (muhaha). I was not in a very optimistic state of mind!

I'm still the same person.. I just wish that you felt that our friendship/companionship or call it what ever you want was something that you would want to fight for to keep at this moment! I'm done trying, I'm just waiting to see if you REALLY want to be in my life, and can make the attempt to save it, and show me that you really do care for me! Have you seen his myspace messages? He has worn me out! I'm going to miss hanging out with him and him always being free, but the drama, the myspace messages, whatever else, not so much...

The ball is in your court. If this is truly over, I will go on with my life. If you make an attempt to save it, I will honor that, and continue to be your friend.

I can't think of anything more to say.

It's up to you...

Sincerely,

Me.