Friday, April 20, 2007
My rain dance paid off
Rain... it really does exist. It has rained pretty constantly all day in So Cal. It is 45 degrees at 4:41p.m. I love rain!!! Tonight I plan to curl up and watch movies tonight in the dark snuggled under nice warm blankets. Anyone care to join me? I wish the guy wasn't busy tonight... he has plans though. Oh well, no worries.Did not sleep good last night and am very tired today. There was an earthquake last night about 3a.m., which woke me up. I heard it, then felt it, then fell back asleep. Woke up at 4:30a.m. to the neighbors walking their dog (I've woke up every morning at this time for years because of it), woke up at 5:30 when my dad got up, didn't fall back asleep until after 6, then got up at 6:30. Morning didn't start off well because of that.Found out today at work the principal chose the right person as coordinator for the program I tutor for. I am so glad. That really made me happy. The coordinator said she harped on the fact that all of us tutors would leave, which would hurt the program. Cool. Yay! That made the day better. I'd like to think that my standing up to the prinicipal also had an effect.Talked to my 2nd cousin this morning (my 2nd cousins are my age... my 1st cousins are double my age). She told me that my other 2nd cousin found her myspace, therefore will probably find mine soon, not to add her. The girl has lots of problems. The girl always seemed like problems and was always in trouble (mainly for grades or crazy boyfriends). She was a nice girl up until her teen years. Her dad, my 1st cousin, is a policeman, so I find that a little strange that the girl turned out the way she said, although he was never the father of the year by any means. Anyways, found out she is 21, dropped out of college, is 6 months pregnant, is a lesbian, her boyfriend of 3 years has been in jail 4 times (and of course they're made for each other), and she is a porn star on some internet website. Yes. That all blew me away. I did of course snoop and type her name in google. She was there. Fully naked. She is a 34B I learned. She has a big tattoo with her boyfriend's name on her hip and a fairy. Neither tattoo looked good (most don't... i don't really like tattoos). I'm not sure if I was more disturbed knowing it was my cousin there or how slutty she has become. I don't think she is hot, but I'm more just upset that she turned out that way. She was never the perfect child, but to sink to this? That disappoints me. Her sisters could easily follow down her path and I crept around on myspace to find them... their myspaces are just as bad as hers. What's worse is I found their mother's myspace and she too has one and she is looking for a boyfriend and has 1000 guys on her page who she flirts with. I think a lot of it was the lack of parenting by my first cousin, his many wives (I think he's on his 4th), the kid's strange living arrangements, but still. She did have grandparents (my aunt and uncle) who were always there to take the kids shoe shopping, bent over their backs for the kids, raised the kids for sometime, but I guess that wasn't enough. I hate to see people sink this low or mess their lives up like this, then for it to be family, that makes it worse.Saw a funny bumpersticker on a car coming home from school that made me laugh:Support your local bar tender. Where ugly people get happy.
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Labels: family, My day, Weather
Thursday, April 19, 2007
My fly dress
Mr. P said I looked like I had a date tonight because I was dressed up... I don't, but of course there was some teasing about that. Anyone want to go out though, I'm in the mood. Loud Mouth confirmed I look pretty sexy, then that caused the others to talk about it. Then Gonzo said I looked fly. The fly part is actually a joke about my last name. Anyways, they liked my shirt, the black jeans with a goldish/brown wash to them, the brown striped shirt, and the brown shoes, so I thought I'd share.
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Labels: clothing
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Christian neighbor tp'd
Someone tp'd the Christian neighbor whom I don't like last night. They got her good. I have my suspicions who it was, if it was one of the neighbors. NO- it was not me. That didn't even cross my mind... tp is such a middle/high school thing to do. Whoever did it though, spent some serious time. They wrapped their 2 cars in tp, the boat, got it up in the palm trees. The roof has toilet paper all over it. The person put cellophane all over the garage door, the entry way to the front door, and on each window of the house. That took guts- I'll give them that... I'd think it'd be hard to not notice someone up putting that on the windows. I think they put oil all over the driveway, which is pretty dangerous. It has the rainbow like color oil gives off and looks slick. Then they put soap all over the grass. No- it was not me who did this- any of this. I just looked out the living room window this morning to see tp everywhere, then took a walk down the street to check it out and took a walk. I didn't take pictures since I didn't want to look guilty or have anyone see me and think I did it. I did nothing. This kind of amused me, so I thought I'd share.
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Labels: Neighbors
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
More music
Everything You Want- Vertical HorizonDesperate- Suburban Legends I've seen them perform once at Disneyland and LOVE all their dancing, movements, and the instruments. Their best song is "Alternative is Dead." Highly recommend them... sorry about song quality here.
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Labels: Music
Updates and misinterpretations
My dad and I still aren't talking. We did go to the gym together last night. I was outside washing the car, he said "I'm going to the gym, are you going?" I came in, changed, and went with him. In the car he said 2 words- "get gas," since he needed gas for his car. When we left the gym he just pointed to show he was ready.The guy and I are still talking. We've talked nearly everyday on instant messenger. I think at least there is a friendship developing there. He is really busy with grad school right now and is swamped with reading. He wants to meet up this weekend probably. I'm looking forward to it. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------I love my aunt in Indiana to death. She isn't really my aunt, but she wants to be an aunt to me since she knows about my aunt in Nor Cal I don't like and how mean my aunt has been to me, so she wants to fill that void. It is my dad's cousin's wife. We've only met once in person last summer and then only spoke a few words to each other. It was a really short, random 2 hour visit. We've talked over e-mail almost daily for years.I can tell her anything (well except sexuality... I just don't want relatives to find out about it and whatnot), but it's cool I can tell her most anything, which is cool. We talk about everything- our day, life, what's bothering us, gas prices, the weather, our health, family, her garden, news, politics, give each other encouragement, she tells me stories that her husband tells about my dad when he was young, everything!!! Sometimes though, I say things that she misinterprets, perhaps it is because I come across as serious instead of being sarcastic. A while back I mentioned how I found a new calling in life- to become a campus supervisor since it sounds like such an easy job. I made it sound totally sarcastic I thought, but to my aunt it didn't come off that way. Instead, the next morning after she read my e-mail where I told her about that, she called at 5:50a.m. to persuade me not to do that, that I was throwing my life away since I really wanted to do that the rest of my life. I guess people sometimes think I come off being totally serious when I'm not. I told her about how I was going to Santa Barbara that weekend and was going to hang out with some old friends. My aunt called because she read in the e-mail I wrote her that I was going to go out and party, which she interpreted get drunk. No. I wrote SB is a party school and there are a lot of parties. I was going to be in a party area. Oh well... The other morning I basically sent her my post I made on my blog about the VA Tech shooting and how I felt so sorry for everyone involved, but also how I said it's possible it can happen anywhere, but it wasn't going to effect me in that it has never happened before. She called at 6:40a.m. the following morning to tell me that she was wanting me to be safe, how to spot suspicious people, but also reconsider what I said. I just compared it to 9/11 saying that I felt bad that it happened, but I couldn't let the terrorists win and takeover and control me through fear. I don't want to live a life in fear. If I lived in fear I wouldn't get in the car every morning and drive to work or school, I wouldn't leave the house, I wouldn't go out in public. 20 minutes after I got off the phone she sent me an e-mail with safety tips on spotting a weapon on someone and what I should do. She ended the e-mail with "keep your eyes open, ditch the don't think it would never happen at my college attitude." I just left it at that, but really I'm not saying it won't happen at my college, just that I can't let it effect me. There are 1000s of colleges in the country, 1000s of students around the country, this was the first campus shooting in years as they have pointed out. I mentioned in my blog it can happen anywhere.I am glad that she is there and that she cares, but sometimes I wish she wouldn't misinterpret these things... heh.
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Labels: family, Guys
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Tutored in Spanish
I got to tutor in Spanish at work today. I was happy. The kids in the 2nd period freshman class got their tests back today. They had a test last week. 2 of the kids wanted to retake their Spanish test and wanted to review the material with me. It was cool and they needed help. Their teacher gives them the verbs in a sentence- they just need to conjugate it into the right tense. Their vocabulary dealt with the face and daily activities like showering or brushing your teeth. 1 kid showed me his test and he didn't use any of the verbs that the teacher had given to them. IT WAS GIVEN TO THEM. The kid did entertain me though... check out some of his answers...- Me alfafo mi bigote. (I alfafo my beard)... he made the word up. It should have been me afeito.- Me barbacoa con la crema de afeito. (Me barbecue with shaving cream)... I got a good laugh out of that one. I'm not going to his house for dinner. It should have been me afeito if you were keeping track.- Se compra los dientes. (He bought the teeth)... it should have been I brush my teeth... interesting. The verb was right next to the sentence... it said (cepillarse; ___ ________ los dientes). He had no excuse for not putting the right verb in... conjugating ok...Anyways, the main problem was the kid didn't know the vocab in the first place, which was his fault and it was his fault for not conjugating right when the verbs were right next to the question... he just had to conjugate them. I was happy to tutor the kid in Spanish, but I really didn't get excited about it since the kid didn't really seem like he cared all that much, but I got a good laugh out of some of his stuff, so I thought I'd share.
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Labels: My day, Work
Good music to pick you up this week
Ok so I was searching youtube for random songs I like to see the music videos and I really wish I didn't look up this video by the Police. It totally ruined the picture I got in my head from the song about the teacher and student and everything. I pictured a rainy day, a teacher driving sees his student, black and white color scheme, black and white video... a dark mysterious apartment... stuff happening between the 2... the teacher reading Lolita... Sting dressed up in that strange outfit did nothing for me. I didn't want to see the members of the Police in the video. I wanted it to entirely be the teacher, the student, and the relationship. I guess I was expecting it to be more sexual... but since it was the early 80s, what was I expecting?Don't Stand So Close to Me- The PoliceI do like their video for Every Breath You TakeI like this song and finally got to see the video. I've been really into BonJovi lately. Living on a Prayer
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Labels: Music
Monday, April 16, 2007
VA Tech Incident and security at my college
First off I can't believe about the VA Tech incident. It is so awful. UNBELIEVABLE. 33 people! The fact it was at a college, a place of learning, what should be a happy place.I heard about the VA Tech incident on KTLA Morning Show this morning and they said 1 person had died on the campus and they had no additional information. About 11:30a.m. leaving work on my way to school I put on KNX 1070 to listen to Bob McCormick's business hour since he talks about really practical money advice I enjoy. They canceled his show for today and they were doing continuous coverage of the incident and they said 33 had died. I was driving down a downhill street and it is a good thing I didn't have my foot on the accelerator... that stunned me. 32 more dead!!! It's sooooo terrible, 1 is bad, then there are suddenly 33. That shocked me. I was mad at KTLA for not being more aggressive about covering the incident. My mouth dropped. I couldn't believe that. 33 DIE AT A COLLEGE!!! I was thinking as I was driving that's more than Columbine or any other school shooting. I was upset. They were interviewing professors and students from around the school and talking about what they went through. I was thinking as I was driving that it is so easy for anyone to access a college campus. I mean there are homeless guys who live on our campus, anyone can come on and sell something,people come on all the time to pass out Bibles and other literature, someone could easily brandish a gun- a professor, student, or random person like mentioned above. There is no security screening to see who comes onto campus. Prospective students visit daily, delivery trucks dropping off food and other items like that, trash trucks, and a ton of other random people have access to a college campus. I felt uneasy for a moment since I'm in college and whatnot and thinking about how easy it was and how all the shooting was just in that one building at VA tech. Then I just thought well after 9/11, I just kept on living, doing what I usually did, that didn't stop me, and this incident can't. The chances of this happening are small, yet it can happen as witnessed today. The possibility of this happening again is slim. I am not saying it won't, but this is not an everyday thing, so I can feel reasonably safe. College/school shootings are not an everyday thing- I mean there are a couple a year and whatnot, but I mean still, not where I would feel unsafe going to college everyday.When I got to school I parked and was finishing my Subway sandwich, a parking lot security guard came up to me and told me I can't stay in my car since I am posing a secuirty threat. I had just pulled in the spot not even 3 minutes ago. What the heck? I asked what that was about and he said the school was cracking down on suspicious activity because of the VA Tech incident and me sitting in the car could be suspicious because I could pull out a gun from under my seat and I could be hiding one in my car. I got out since I was about to be late and went to class and didn't want to argue about something as serious as this, especially after today it would not have been right to argue.There were security guards stationed all around the parking lot and around the campus. There was tons more security in the library today- instead of just 1 guard like usual, there were 4 or 5 walking around, which almost made me uneasy. Really it was not necessary. I was on my computer on myspace and facebook, but to have the guards looking at what I was doing and stopping looking over people's shoulders bothered me. I was seriously becoming bothered by the extra security. There are tons of security cameras in the library in the first place. 1 guard is certainly enough. I hope this doesn't continue. Maybe they were just trying to make students feel safe, but they made me feel uncomfortable. Security people were pacing up and down the halls after class let out and not letting people loiter in the halls. I actually saw the university police driving around in their cars today. I'm sure this is just a 1 time thing- I can't imagine my campus continuing this. I don't know what a college can do to prepare for this- I mean in California we have to deal with fire drills, earthquake drills, but this just adds another thing. I hope that this is just one of those things that colleges will act proactively to this and reevaluate their security procedures to include other things that may not usually be addressed like a schooll shooting or whatever. I am not sure my college current policies and don't care, but I mean I hope that this is something that they have thought of and amm sure they will following this. Let me reitterate I feel safe going to college everyday and this incident is not going to effect me.
Posted by Mike at 4:47 PM 1 comments
Labels: My day, News, Radio, Thoughts
I broke my give a damn
Last night I reminded my parents (mom) that my sister needed to find a different way to get to school. My sister forgot by this morning. My sister probably didn't care and didn't think my mom or me were serious.Sister came in my bedroom at 6:25 this morning wondering if I was going to take her to school. I said no. I was going to sleep. She asked why not and how she was going to get there... I had no clue and didn't care. She wanted to know why not... I reminded her of the other night when I was telling mom and dad about how irresponsible and rude she was. Then said the most random thing that came to my mind... "my give a damn's busted," I don't care what you do. That Jo Dee Messina song came to my head and I just told her that... that seemed to confuse her... she thought about it for a moment, then told me that she never did anything to me and she didn't break my "big d-word because the big d-word is a verb, not a noun" then she thought about it for a moment and started her usual OOOOOOOOH YOU CUSSED.... YOU'RE GOING TO BE IN TROUBLE DEAL and I'm going to tell mommy and daddy because I'm 2 years old... my sister... My sister is soooo funny about "bad" words... it's hilarious. I'll talk about that later. Actually I don't cuss a lot, but when I do there is a reason. Anyways I'm beyond caring about her... my give a damn is busted. But my give a damn is busted this morning... I don't care anymore. My sister called the neighbor and went with him this morning. YAY!!! I got to sleep until 7:20.My give a damn's busted and it's only Monday!!! What a way to start the week! I'm already looking forward to the weekend. No, actually I'm all caught up on schoolwork ready to take on the world. I don't have to be at work until 9:11 today, then school at 12. I feel great being caught up on work, slept good last night, homework is done, so here's to Monday! Hope everyone else has a good week! I'm going to try to make it that!By the way- I can't stand this song. I don't know, it's just not my thing... but hey... it was EXACTLY how I felt about my situation with my sister and I think it made my point.
Jo Dee Messina - My Give A Damn's Busted
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Labels: My day, Sister
Can you make out what the size is on the tag? heh.
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Labels: clothing, My day
Saturday, April 14, 2007
DULL SATURDAY!!!
Got up at 7:15 to go take the CBEST. I'm lucky I only lived 13 miles from the test site... others weren't so lucky. I talked to about 5 people who drove 2 hours just to take the test since there are only a few test sites in each county. I saw about 5 people from my college I had classes with taking the test. I also saw a friend's mom at the test place... she wants to teach since her kids are now grown and she doesn't have to stay at home. The structure of the test wasn't terrible... I mean it's not like the SAT where you are stuck on 1 section the entire time... you could work on everything at your own pace and could leave once you were done. I have no doubt I passed it. I ACTUALLY FELT REALLY CONFIDENT ABOUT THE MATH SECTION (it was basic math (proportions, fractions, probablility, graphs), but math nonetheless). But I am almost 100% positive I passed I didn't get out until 1:00p.m. though. They actually collected cell phones, which surprised me. I left mine in the car.Came home and cut more branches in the yard. My dad came out to join me. IT WAS AWKWARD since we still aren't talking to each other. We just kind of gave each other a stare. I wanted to say something, but that would probably have just made the situation worse.Went to Barnes & Noble tonight for a book for my English class for a book. I of course needed money... usually go to my dad for that. I went over to him and he spoke 2 words "see mother." That was it. My mom thinks this thing my dad does is childish, but it happens everytime we argue and it goes on for day ssometimes. Anways, got the money and my mom actually had the money (my mom doesn't usually carry cash). My mom purposely made it like a big deal I was coming to her to get the money to show my dad she was more special or something... just to show how stupid this whole little thing is going on between my dad and I.I also needed gas Friday night so I told my mom and dad. My dad just gave me his ATM to go to the gas station and fill my car up... didn't say anything. This isn't the only time my dad has given me the silent treatment. We keep our cars in my family a long time and only bought used at that. I found a cool car and it was new, cheaper than a used. My mom liked it too, so we went to buy it. My dad didn't like the car and so wasn't going to sign the papers. Finally he did, but didn't talk to my mom or me for a week. My dad ended up liking the car after about 2 months and in fact after the car was totalled about 2 years ago went out and bought the same car in the same exact color and features.Then I went to my grandma's house to get caught up on reading for school without distractions. I read nonstop from 7:45p.m.-11:20p.m. for 2 classes and am now pretty caught up/ahead. I didn't tell my parents I was going... I just said I was going out and went to study. Tommorow I'm planning on shopping... Kohls and probably some random stores. I am also going to wash my car. The 3 drops of rain we had was just enough to make the car dirty. It was already dusty to begin.
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Labels: My day
Friday, April 13, 2007
Mike is considering...
I'm considering more form fitting clothes since I've been working out lately. I didn't really dress baggy before, but I didn't dress in stuff that fit me well and showed off my body... so anways here's what I'm looking at right now at Pac Sun:I don't like this shirt, but I have a lot of patterened shirts like this, but in different colors and I'm questioning whether or not they look good on me right now... me thinks not.
Posted by Mike at 2:49 PM 1 comments
Labels: clothing, Thoughts
Week off from work
I've had this week off from work due to Spring Break. VERY NICE... I've needed this break... I've got so many little things done... I couldn't imagine not working though. I know I'm just busy this week because I actually have the time to get everything done. But if I were to be at home everyday like this and have all this free time who knows what would happen... I'd be climbing walls probably. I am glad to have got so much done though.Monday: Went on a nice long walk in the neighborhood in an area I haven't walked down in years. Cleaned up in the living room for my dad. Went to school at 12, was out by 4. Did my Spanish essay.Tuesday: Watched Regis & Kelly (can't stand Pat Sajak though) so I turned back and forth between that and GDLA, hit the bank, gym, school from 3-4, and met up with the guy Wednesday: Watched GDLA, Went to the gym, cleaned up my bedroom, went to school at 12, got a haircut during my break, then went back to school. Had a doctor's appointment 2 cities away. I have a big scar on my face from when I was 2 years old from a dog bite and the doctor messed it up the first time by operating on it (the scar actually doubled in size). Now that I've fully grown (even though the nurse said I'm not) he wants to operate again. For the record, though I'm 20, I'm still growing. In my dad's family men typically grow until they are at least 21 or 22. I spent an hour there arguing with the doctor trying to get answers about the surgery from him. He couldn't give me answers so I'm filing a complaint with him. I asked him what the after effects of the surgery would be... he said "you can go to school later in the day." UM... I'm sorry that doesn't cut it... I want to know how long it will take to heal, will there be pain, what I'll have to do to care for the scar as it was healing... he couldn't answer any of that. I had to wear a bandaid for a year after he did the surgery before because no light could hit the scar or would make it bigger. I wore a bandaid during all of 3rd grade below my left eye. I would not do that again now and the doctor did not tell me whether or not I'd have to. Then I asked if the zigzag would really make the scar disappear and what if the surgery didn't work. He said "it'll work." Gee... you messed up the scar once and it doubled in size and so I'm very aware of it and it is very noticeable in pictures and when people first meet me, so to me ti si something major. I WANTED ANSWERS AND HE COULDN'T TELL ME. Instead he went off on a tangent about how he has a friend who went to USC to major in Communications. The big news from that was last time I was measured back in September I was 6'0'' exactly. Now in April I am 6' 1 3/4''. NICE. I want to be 6' 3'' or so... heh... new goal. Thursday: Watched KTLA Morning Show, went on a massive throw out spree in my room. Rearranged a section of my room... took longer than planned, but it's done. Asked my sister nicely to clean her bedroom, asked my sister nicely to bring up the trash cans. Resulted in massively long blog and me yelling at her outside of the house for all the neighbors to hear... then it went inside and more yelling. Went to school. Called DELL to have my keyboard on my laptop replaced cuz I broke the spacebar (somewhat accidentally... something got trapped below it, then I went in trying to perform surgery and the next thing I know it doesn't work well). Had a talk with the parents about my sister. Studied for the CBEST.It was sunny and maybe 75 Thursday, but it was soooooo windy. It was a constant, heavy wind. There was dust and sand blowing everywhere... moreso than usual when we have wind. It was soooo cool... I mean the sky was red from all the dust and dirt kicking up and the sky stayed that way for at least 4 hours. There were tumbleweeds flying everywhere. I did see a funnel cloud it just looked like a cylinder, but it was reported on the radio and there was no damage, but it looked like a funnel and it looked like it was near the freeway I was driving down.Friday: I'm going to be going to breakfast with one of my coworkers/ best friend's in about 20 minutes... maybe she needs a name... ok it's Gonzo... that's what everyone calls her when they call her by her nickname... anyways... we try to meet once a month for breakfast, lunch, or dinner and catch up with each other. She is one of my best friends, so I always look forward to it. Her boyrfriend is the one who responded to my craigslist ad. There's sooooooo much to talk about today.My mom wants to go out to dinner tonight, so we're all meeting at TGI Fridays after school. Then I'm going to do a little shopping at the mall for pants and shirts.Tommorow CBEST test (ugh), then homework
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Thursday, April 12, 2007
Talked to the parents
Had a big meeting about my sister and her babyish ways over dinner. Basically I told my parents I was fed up, gave them my EXTENDED list. They were pretty stunned about all my complaints. My dad said I'm just not a forgiving person. In my sister's case that is true. I said that has nothing to do with it though... it's all about her acting like a baby, her laziness, her reliance on others. My mom said she understands. Basically I made it very clear 1000 times I was tired and am not doing anything more for her than take her to school. When I do ask for something from her I want her to listen. I want her to grow up. My mom agreed. My dad said she is very mature and whatnot. NO. Tell me that this previous post was not about her lack of maturity. My dad says basically I'm expected to deal with her being apart of this family and that I get gas money for taking her places. I pointed out I do but she needs to grow up, learn to drive, take responsibility, and I go out of my way to deal with her. I'm tired of it. He said I'm doing what all other brothers do... UM... NO... NOT HARDLY... MY DAD IS SO OBLIVIOUS TO THIS WHOLE THING. UGH!!! My dad and I are so different and don't get along well in the first place. This doesn't help. I basically upped my threats... I'm not taking her to school... guess that means she'll have to leave for school at 6:00a.m. when my dad does or when I go to work. I said I've had enough and I think this shows I'm very serious. I have no guilt in saying and doing this. He said he'll see about having her ride with the neighbor across the street. Heh. Yeah... right. He won't. On Monday even if my dad hasn't arranged anything I'm not taking my sister. I'm being completely serious.Then I brought up the whole responsibility thing. He said she is responsible... she does her homework. YES... SHE DOES AT BEDTIME. She does the dishes... when asked 10000 times. She doesn't clean up and the house/her room attests to that. He said we'll see what we can do. I said no... that means you're pushing the issue off. He said no, he just deals with her in different ways than me. WHAT THE HECK DOES THAT MEAN? I don't know. I said you need to hold her responsible for something... she is just lazy and this is going to hurt her in life, college, she's so reliant on everyone and whatnot. He said no I'm just making a big deal out of a small thing. I was seriously going to throw something at him. I did begin yelling and told him that I am so tired of it and that I'm wanting to move out because of her. He said that I have no reason to want to. SURE... when her laziness effects me like it does (not only because she can't clean up, take initiative, her junk is everywhere, we all have to drive her everywhere)... I think that's reason. I told my dad I quit and anytime I have even the slightest problem with her I'm calling him and my mom both at work... which won't go over well... I am also going to e-mail my dad at work each time. Me thinks he'll get tired of it soon.Basically my dad ended the thing with I need counseling for my anger issues and whatnot. NO. I have anger issues because my sister does absolutely nothing, she is lazy, she does nothing and gets away with it. I could say my dad and sister need counseling, but whatever. We'll see how these next few days play out. Me also thinks my dad and I won't be on speaking terms for a while. He has been avoiding me since dinner. GOOD. I hope it made him think. I am sure it didn't, but whatever. I can try other tactics to get my way like not doing anything and see what happens then...
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Labels: family, Sister
STUPID SISTER
I TRIED TO MAKE THIS A READ MORE POST TO CONDENSE IT BECAUSE IT IS SO LONG AND DRONES ON... BUT IT DIDN'T WORK AND RIGHT NOW I DON'T CARE. I'M FED UP. I HAVE TO VENT. I DONT' CARE. I HAVE TO LET OUT SOME STEAM. I'm so upset with my sister right now. I DO NOT LIKE THE THING. I want to throw something, kick something, do something. I just can't stand her right now. I just want to vent and feel like someone is listening, someone cares. I am soooo puset. I AM DONE WITH HER!!! OFFICIALLY!!! I AM ONLY GOING TO TAKE HER TO AND FROM SCHOOL NOTHING ELSE. SHE HAS BEEN MAKIGN ME MAD ALL DAY!!! She is the laziest thing on earth!!! I blew up a few minutes ago when my sister refused to bring the trash cans up the driveway... she does so little... apparently I was asking for so much.She is worse than an effin 2 year old. She has been going through the terrible 2's for 17 years. She is ugggggggggggh. WE ARE DEFINITELY HAVING A FAMILY TALK TONIGHT. I'M GOING TO SHOW MY PARENTS THIS LIST AND MORE TONIGHT EVEN THOUGH I HAVE HELD BACK PRIOR TO THIS. THEY NEED TO SEE AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED.I kept a list last summer so I could talk to her when school began to show what I did, versus what she did, in the hope that she would see that she is really doing nothing, while everyone else is, so alot about what I say is going to be about that and is my list below, but it all still holds true. I keep the list in a special place, then whenever I'm mad at her, which is usually sometime in the morning when I'm taking her to school when she is being very slow getting ready or has an attitude when she wakes up (which is often) or like this morning, though I didn't resort to that, I take it out, then usually end up yelling at her, telling her why I'm upset with her, go down my laundry list like below, then things get better for a week or so, she's responsible, then she relapses. My mom has talked to her MAAAANY times and still... no good. My dad... he just doesn't see it, but only will back my mom up when it comes to my sister being more responsible.What I do around the house/in my life/this past summer:Clean the dishes, kitchen, bathroom, my room on a regular basis. I take my sister to school each morning. I have taken at least one college class every summer for years, has she? Has she got her permit yet and she's had all summer? I made dinner at least 10 times last summer... did she cook once, even when she was asked? I helped my dad with yardwork at least twice each week and we consistently filled up 6 trash cans each week during the summer... did she? I vacuumed the house at least a dozen times last summer... did she? No. She sat in her room alllllllllllllllllllllllll summer playing on the computer, reading, and watching Yankee games. She wouldn't leave despite my parents attempts to get her out of the house or mine. I still managed to have a life last summer... hung out with friends many times... had lunch with them usually once a week, went to Disneyland 3 or 4 times, went to San Diego with my best friend for a couple days, went to L.A. at least 4 times, and went to Indiana/Kentucky, so don't tell me I didn't have a life/had no fun. I managed to do all of this in addition to the problems I had with my nose/all the time I spent at the doctor about that this past summer.I go to school full time and work part time. I still manage to have a life... hang out with friends (upon occasion). I still manage to help out around the house. I go to the gym about 3 times a week. I get all my homework done. What my sister does: takes the dishes out of the dishwasher ONLY when asked (once daily) does homework (very rarely)readswatches TVsleeps (12 hours a night on weekends!... and that's not enough)plays around on the computerWhat I've done for HER in the past few months:- Sat up her new computer and didn't get a thank you.- Taken her to school each morning.- Taken her home from school (not anymore, though)- Called the computer company at least 4 times in the past few months when her computer broke and didn't get a thank you for that from her. - Picked her up at school when she has been sick at least 5 times this year- Tried to be nice to her, which is really hard, especially after you read the below.- Took her to her friends house 4 times when my parents couldn't... a thank you? No- If I go somewhere, even out with friends I invite her to go along, only because I know she won't go. I think I'm pretty nice and do a lot.My biggest complaint- SHE IS LAZY. She spends all day on the computer, reading, or watching TV. She doesn't care if she gets out or has interaction with the outside world... BORING.Anyways here's a list of other things she has to be asked 10000000000000000 times to do anything listed below, and usually will only do it after she is yelled at enough... - brush her dog- do the dishes- clean up her bedroom- help in the kitchen- clean up the house- help in the yard- clean her roomShe is rude/mean- she shows no concern for others- won't eat 40% of the stuff we eat at home for dinner, so she'll throw a fit... she won't eat a lot of meat, pork, baked potatoes, spaghetti sauce, stroganoff sauce, and stuff like that. She likes everything plain. I don't throw a fit when we eat something I don't like (which is rare). I am always willing to try and if I don't like it, I'll still eat some, then may just snack more in the evening.- when we eat out as a family she'll throw a fit if we won't go somewhere she wants (she'll only eat chicken strips, pasta, and stuff like that), so if somewhere doesn't serve 1 of those 2 things... it's hard to find somewhere to eat. --- We could go where we want, but then she won't eat, she'll whine and complain and bitch and moan that she doesn't like this and she's sooooooo hungry and she's just not pleasant to be around, so we go somewhere she'll eat. It ends up being the same places we go to over and over (Jack in the Box or Cocos if it is sit down and dine)... she won't eat Wendys, McDonalds, IHOP, Weinerschnitzel, Carls, Arbys, Mexican food, Del Taco and Taco Bell, and many more restaurants. We only eat out once a week, that is the day we get allergy shots, but it is such a chore at times to find somewhere she will eat.- she refuses to try new foods... I LOVE TO TRY NEW FOODS and be adventurous- if anyone in the family asks her to do something, chances are she won't listen- she apparently tunes out everything the family says at dinner about stuff taking place, then when someone isn't home or something she wonders why- she has never thanked me for anything I bought her for her birthday or Christmas (and I go out of my way to buy what I think will please her). - she has never worn anything I have bought her for Christmas or her birthday (she claims I buy stuff too skimpy and shows too much chest... umm.... I know what my sister will and will not wear ... I bought her stuff like she usually wears... it's just out of the fact that she is trying to make me mad and not wear them and that hurts, especially when she wears the same thing week after week) - she goes to bed at 1 or 2, then wakes up at 6:00a.m., then is in a rotten mood since she hasn't got enough sleep and tries to take it out on others. My parents try to corral her about 8:30 every night and have her get ready for bed, then she is in bed by 10:30, but reads until 1-2a.m. EVERY NIGHT. Can we say stubborn 2 year old? You'd think being 17 she'd have more responsibility- When she can't sleep, she lets EVERYONE know... she'll get up, walk around, sings out loud, then usually ends up in the bathtub trying to sleep, but wakes everyone else up in the process, then when she is asleep in the bathtub if she knocks the faucet or side of the bathtub it has an echo that can be heard through the house which is weird, but annoying, especially at 2:00a.m.- She has probably seen the movie RENT 100 times... NO JOKE... SHE WATCHES IT PRACTICALLY EVERYDAY. I asked her several times to lend me the DVD so I could see what all the hype about it was, but she refused everytime saying she was going to watch it right then... UM... NO... she never did. SHE'S SELFISH. Actually, I am sad I wasted 2 hours or so of my life one night a few weeks ago watching it when it was on TV, but still, I wasn't asking for the world.She is boring - She stays at home all day- She never wants to go out anywhere- She has 3 interests- books, Harry Potter, Yankees baseball/baseball, so it is hard to have a conversation with her... THAT'S ALL SHE TALKS ABOUT... NO JOKE... AT DINNER... THAT'S ALL SHE TALKS ABOUT... IN THE CAR... THAT'S ALL SHE TALKS ABOUT... SHE'LL COME IN THE LIVING ROOM 20 TIMES A NIGHT TO TELL ABOUT SOME NEW HARRY POTTER SECRET REVEALED OR TELL YOU THE YANKEE'S SCORE AS IF I GIVE A CRAP. I really hate Harry Potter with a passion because of this. Yankees... I can't stand them either... but my hate for all of those isn't because I hate them (well maybe I do...), but it's that I'm so tired of hearing about each of them, I have no interest in them whatsoever. Go Angels and Dodgers!!!Has no respect- no respect for herself (won't take care of herself... use acne cream... has to be told to brush her teeth... take her nose medicene... style/brush her hair, which it really needs...)- she shows no concern for family, yet shows tons of concern for friends and celebrities she adores- A few weeks ago, she found my myspace and I'm fine with that. She kind of teased me I had a myspace, but I told her everyone does, so big deal. Then she went through the 80 or so people on my friends list and apparently looked up every guy who was gay or bi on there and then told me that I had 3 gay guys on my friends list. SO??? Gay guys are human too... they're nice guys... they're my friends... so what's the big deal? She mentioned it in the car and it was totally awkward and I remember thinking WOW... is she trying to get me to say I'm gay or sommething or what? That made me mad. I have nothing to hide on my myspace, in fact I have no problem admitting and showing my myspace to anyone, but the fact that she is so against gay/bi guys and stuff makes me mad. She is more closed minded on sexuality than me, but definitely more liberal than me on every other issue (and I considre myself pretty liberal), but the fact that she went through my myspace just for that made me mad.- no respect for other viewpoints (especially when it comes to politics)- she can't show respect or at least keep her mouth shut about what I listen to on the radio (every morning she compains about Mark & Kim, country music, talk radio, whatever) She'll just talk over them or make comments about EVERYTHING.- When I wear my Dodgers t-shirt or jersey she gets so mad and goes off bashing my team and talks about how bad they are, how they suck, how they can't play, how I just wear the shirt to make her mad and so on. I don't let this bother me, but woman... have some respect and controlDoesn't care about family/doesn't want to be associated with family- Always very enthusiastic around friends and talks nicer to them than she does us- She just spends all evening in her room (how boring... I don't... I'm out... around doing things... talking to family... interacting...)- We went on a one night family getaway last summer. There was plenty of room in the 1 suitcase we took, but she insisted on bringing her own along, which was huge and made little room in the car for anything else.- She doesn't show concern for family- When the Yankee pitcher Cory Lidle died in the helicopter crash in NY last September she cried for hours, then when my mom's aunt died who she knew and liked she just said "oh."- She shows more concern and cries for a teacher who is getting a divorce than anything going on in this family... issues with my aunt in Nor Cal... - She goes out of her way to make me mad- I can't think of many reasons now, but when I am listening to the radio (country, talk, rock, whatever) and she doesn't like it, she'll intentionally talk louder so I can't hear, then only stops when I make her sit in the back seat. She tries to provoke me around my parents to say/do stuff to her, so she can get me in trouble, but I know her games, I avoid it.- She tries to avoid my mom and I for calling her out- She never wants to go anywhere... Disneyland... Knotts... LA... She lies...- never in my 4 years of high school did I have 15 hours of homework a day, each day on weekends, she uses this as her excuse to stay at home and read (since she is not allowed on the computer when my parents are away) and avoid being out with family. NEVER IN COLLEGE HAVE I HAD THAT MUCH. I MANAGED ABOVE A 3.5 IN COLLEGE... MAYBE DOING 2 HOURS OF HOMEWORK/READING A WEEK IF THAT. NO...DON'TGIVE ME THAT SCHOOL COMES EASIER FOR SOME PEOPLE EXCUSE. I KNOW THAT'S NOT MY SISTER'S PROBLEM THAT HOMEWORK JUST TAKES HER LONGER.- She always makes up excuses/lies as to why she can't get her permit and I know for a fact and have told my parents that she is not busy. - She makes up excuses to not have to do chores (I've done that... just not to the extend she did)- she stays 2-3 hours after school everyday (even if I can pick her up, though now I refuse) just so she can say she was working on the newspaper so she can say she is busy and has no time to get her permit or anything- she always has an excuse why she can't help out around the house like homework and it is always a lie- she always says she is hot, yet especially in the winter when she gets home turns on her electric blanket in her bedroom and turns the heater up in the house, then we ask if she is cold and she says no... then when anyone else turns up the heat she gets upset and throws a fit- also regarding saying she is hot... she wears shorts everyday... even in winter... she only puts pants on when my mom, dad, or I call her out on it and force her to put them on, then she gets in a bad mood, then she gets sick and wonders why- last weekend she put the dishes away and put away 2 glass 8 cup measuring cups in the cabinet where they belong, but she didn't put them away correctly... not on a shelf by themself... instead inside of an unsteady metal pan beause she didn't have sense to realize they could easily fall out of the pan... they did when my dad opened up the cabinet on they both broke on the floor... my dad asked who it was and blamed me... I explained no... I havne't cooked anything and hse tried to blame it on me and so there was a big shouting match between my sister, dad, mom, and I... I didn't cook anything recently and I don't put the dishes away... therefore it is not my fault the dishes broke- she tells my parents that I do a lot of things I never actually do to her like make her late to school and she makes up these lies when I call her out on something. She has NOT ONCE been late to school... her report card has the number of tardies/absences... there are many absences from when she was sick... but no tardies... and the only abesnces from 1st period are from when she was actually sickHas no personal responsibility - WILL NOT CLEAN HER ROOM... OMG... YOU CAN BARELY WALK IN THERE... NO KIDDING. - Refuses to do chores and has to be told 10000000000 times to (and it always takes someone yelling at her to do anything)- SHE NEVER THROWS ANYTHING AWAY... I MEAN ANYTHING... EXCEPT TRASH IN HER BACKPACK.- Never helps in the house or yard like everyone else- Doesn't do anything when it needs to be done- It is sooooooooooooo annoying... every morning at 6:43a.m. exactly I have to tell her to go get ready and do your hair for school... we go through this every morning... the past 3-4 years... you'd think she'd know by now.- Waits until the last minute to do her homework, then throws a fit, takes it out on everyone else when it doesn't get finished- won't take care of herself... use acne cream... has to be told to brush her teeth... take her nose medicine... style/brush her hair, which it really needs... - she tends to get sick at least a dozen times a year and I don't think it's that she has a weak immune system, but that she doesn't take care of herself and is an idiot and will always wear shorts even in the rain... she has had 5 colds maybe since January. If my parents or I catch her before she leaves the house and it is cold, she is wearing shorts, we try to stop her, but we don't always see it. (I take care of myself, stuff like that, and may get sick once a year)- internet was down for a week this past summer and she still did nothing in the house... everyone else did... she just stayed in her room reading and watching TV...ATTITUDE- she won't eat anything anyone else does (like Mexican food... how can she be from California and not like Mexican food?), so when we eat out we can only eat out at a few places... she won't eat hamburgers... pretty much only chicken and spaghetti, then throws a fit like a 2 year old when we don't eat somewhere she likes, which causes a lot of problems, usually just to not cause any problems when we eat out, we'll eat somewhere she likes so not everyone is mad at each other- the above limits what we eat at home... that's why when my mom and I cook we always try to come up with something new, so then if she doesn't like it, she can make spaghetti noodles- she is stubborn and if she doesn't want to do something, she won't - if she doesn't get her way, too bad, she'll cry... she's 17... not 2...- she only thinks about herself- her senior pictures... my mom wanted her to wear a red blouse to go with the blue background and did her hair nice and sort of curly. My sister took a brush to her hair afterward and made it completely flat like it is now, so her senior pictures turned out EXTREMELY CRAPPY. My sister refuses to wear makeup because inside beauty is more important, then wiped of the makeup my mom put on her. Then she got mad and tried to take it out on everyone else when her pictures turned out bad and it was her fault.- she won't do think anything through before she does it- she intentionally tries to piss people off- she won't listen to what my mom/dad say, then when she needs something for school or lunch, she wants us to jump, go, and my dad will, though we may have just gone to the store. She can never get it when we go out over the weekend so consequently my dad has to waste time and gas to go get the brat what she wants.- she can't take constructive criticism or any criticism for that matter!YET...- She expects us to jump everytime she wants something or has a need (drive her somewhere, go somewhere, go to the bookstore for a book, go to the store if she forgets to tell us what she wants for lunch when we go to the grocery store on Sunday)- She gets mad and snaps easily at everything and complains when we don't do something she wants- she acts like a baby all the time just to get her way* I LEFT OUT A LOT OF SPECIFICS, BUT THIS IS A GENERAL IDEA OF WHY MY SISTER ANNOYS AND MAKES ME MAD AND UPSETS ME I have had it with my sister. I havce put my foot down, refuse to help her, refuse to take her places, refuse to do anything with her, other than to school in the morning, refuse to deal with her attitude. Whenever she does something I don't like now I just say forget it, it's her problem, she's just messing herself up. I don't care. I really am so upset wtih her and it will take a while for me to forgive, if I can.LAST WEEK SHE MADE ME SOOOOOO MAD!!! The rule for waking me up (I came up with this after I was tired of her coming in my room yelling at me to get up morning after morning and her bad attitude). It's not hard to wake me up, but she would come in purposely being as rude as she can trying to make me mad. THE RULE IS THAT SHE COMES IN MY BEDROOM, SAYS NOTHING, DOESN'T EVEN TURN ON THE LIGHT AND TURNS ON THE TV. IT IS ON THE NEWS AND SO I'LL HEAR IT, WAKE UP NICE AND SLOW LISTENING TO THE NEWS, WEATHER, AND TRAFFIC. GOOD DEAL. The reason I have her wake me up is it makes her stay up, so she won't fall back asleep and be late. I could easily set my alarm, but then she'd fall back asleep and then be late, and whatnot. This morning she came in my room, I heard the door open like usual, BUT SHE COMMITTED A BIG NO NO BY TURNING ON THE LIGHT, then I hear her get on my bed, she leans over on me, says sarcastically WATCH THIS! and the next thing I know there are bright flashes. SHE IS TAKING PICTURES OF ME SLEEPING??? WHY??? REALLY??? THAT MADE ME SO MAD!!! SHE SAID "WATCH THIS" IN A TONE LIKE SHE WAS TRYING TO MAKE ME MAD. If I had known what she was doing it would have been fine, if she were playing and I knew about it, fine, but to say nothing, then have that crazy flash, first thing in the morning, NO. Then I confronted her and told her she better find a new way to get to school. I also grab the camera in the process and get upset with her for doing that, ask her why she had my digital camera, if she was trying to be funny, how I don't care the camera nearly broke by me grabbing it, she shouldn't have been doing that. I also pointed out the camera was in the living room because it was being charged. I was going to use it. NOT HER. She went off saying how it is the family camra and whatnot (but I'm the only one who uses it and get dibs on it). Maybe I have no sense of humor, whatever, if it were a friend doing it or someone else I probably wouldn't have reacted this way, but my sister I'm sure it was out of sheer meanness. I took the camera then I just laid in bed watching the news, then to show her I was serious, at 7:00a.m. when I usually take her to school I strolled into thee kitchen and made myself some hot chocolate, came into the living room, turned on Good Day LA and started sipping and enjoying my hot chocolate. My sister realized I wasn't taking her to school, the neighbor across the street had already left, so she had nobody to take her. SORRY. I said she should have not been so rude waking me up. She then was throwing a fit... on the floor crying and I said tough. I'm sorry. I try to be nice and take you, I try to be nice, but you aren't nice back. She then went through her usual... how will I get to school and so on... I just told her find a way. Walk. Take the city bus. Then she told me she was going to call mommy and daddy and they would force my butt to take her to school. OOOh you can tell I was scared. NOT. I just sat there with my yummy hot chocolate curled up on the couch. She did call my dad and told him that I wasn't taking her to school. I told him why and said that I didn't appreciate it and I don't care if he wants me to I'm not taking her. He was upset at my sister and me and said he respects my decision. My sister KNOWS NOT TO PLAY these little games and call my mom, so she didn't. By this time it was 7:20, she was begging me to take her. I still refused to take her. I told her if she walked she might make it by 8:00a.m. She was crying, slammed the door on the house and walked out. She called a friend who was going to school to take heer and she did. I don't care, fine, at least I didn't have to deal with her. SHE IS DEFINITELY GETTING IN TROUBLE BY MY PARENTS TONIGHT. I'M NOT LETTING HER SORRY SELF GET OFF THE HOOK. I AM TIRED OF HER AND HER CRAP. I'd swear... our maturity levels are sooooooooooooooo different. I can be a cool/joking guy, in fact, if someone else did it, but to know that my sister was most likely doing this to make me mad, which she was, it was different. SHE KNOWS WELL BY NOW TO NOT DO ANYTHING BUT TURN ON THE TV AND LEAVE MY BEDROOM IN THE MORNING.REALLY IT MAY SOUND LIKE I'M UPTIGHT, STRICT, STICK TO THE RULES, EVERYTHING HAS TO BE JUST PERFECT, OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE, THE IDIOT OLDER BROTHER, WHATEVER. NO. I LIKE THINGS ORGANIZED. I LIKE MY SISTER HELPING OUT. I AM PRETTY LOOSE AND LAID BACK MOST OF THE TIME. I DON'T ALWAYS FOLLOW THE RULES. I'M EASYGOING EVEN THOUGH IT MAY NOT SEEM LIKE IT. I TRY TO GET ALONG WITH MY SISTER. SHE DOESN'T WANT TO GET ALONG WITH ME THOUGH. I JUST WISH SHE WOULD DO MORE, TRY HARDER, HELP, DO SOMETHING, BE FRIENDLIER, BE NICER, BE MORE PLEASANT. She does a lot of things, like the above, to make me mad, which makes it soooooooooooooooo hard to love her. Then she expects the world from everyone else. She does sooooooooooooooooooooooo much to me that I haven't even mentioned here and am not going to. WE HAVE SOOOOOOOOOO MANY DIFFERENCES, BUT I TRY MY BEST TO BE NICE AND FRIENDLY TOWARD HER, BUT SHE IS SO RUDE TO MYSELF AND EVERYONE ELSE. AND I MEAN RUDE. I AM NOT USING THAT WORD LIGHTLY. I AM AT THE END FO THE LINE.In her defense... I understand she might not want to hang out with brother or anyone else in the family cuz it's uncool... but what else does she do???? NOTHING... I understand she is a teenager and it is hard to fit in, get along, whatever. Fine. I was never like that though. I didn't mind hanging out with my parents and had no trouble fitting in or whatever. i don't know fi that's her problem or not. I don't care.I only hope she matures when she gets to college and actually does something/helps out. I really would like to get along and have a better relationship with her. I just don't see it happening. I try, believe me, the reason I call her out on everything is because I love her. I want to help her, I want her to do something, I want her to have fun, but do something! My mom wants to help her. I am actually hoping that my mom is able to enforce this with my dad. My parents said that for them to pay for my insurance when I started driving I had to help out more around the house. I did. I still do. That's not the only reason I do. I'm hoping that they'll do that with my sister. I will wait and see when she gets her license if that happens, but if not, I'm certainly going to bring it up. She's getting everything... a car (crappy at that)... gas... insurance... and paying nothing. I got a car, gas, insurance, but I put in for it. I help. I help shuttle my sister. Taking away my sister's computer, TV, and iPod does no good. She'll sit and read or do nothing. I've told my parents they need to take away her books and maybe she'll do something... they don't buy that. I have noticed that my parents won't buy her books anymore... if she wants them, she has to buy them.I thinkthis may be part of the reason.Now my sister is [somewhat] smart, she is just lazy and irresponsible and boring... it hurts. She acts like a 2 year old. If this weren't a perpetual thing, it may be cute. She thinks the world revolves around her. Then my dad always gives in to her. SHE IS DADDY'S LITTLE GIRL WHO CAN DO NOTHING WRONG. NOTHING. SHE IS PERFECT. My mom refuses and so do I to give into her like my dad. We call her out on everything, that's why she doesn't like us, but we know it is for her own good. I know and hope by callingher out now, it will helpour relationship later and she'll respect me for what I did.My mom and I have told my dad MANY times he gives in, but denies it even when we point it out WHEN IT IS BLANTANTLY OBVIOUS.My sister and I are both so different... I'm shy, but I'm not as shy as she is. I love interaction with people, once I do get to know someone, though I'm shy at first. I'm cool in group situations, etc., but if I don't know you at first, I'm a little shy at first. My sister is SHIER. YES. She rarely hangs out with her friends, part of the reason is her friend's parents don't let her friends hang out, but even the ones who will, she doesn't hang out with except at school. WHAT TEENAGER DOESN'T WANT TO GO TO THE MOVIES WITH FRIENDS???? IT'S NOT AS IF MY PARENTS DON'T LET HER. MY PARENTS ARE ENNCOURAGE AND PRACTICALLY BEGGING HER TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE. My sister is uncomfortable around big groups and stuff like that and lately to me it seems like anything in public. That's a problem in it's own and my mom and I have realized that. When we got the gym membership she never wanted to go, and still doesn't. She's not fat, but she is body conscious, she just doesn't like to associate with people I think. She's so introverted. MORESO THAN ME... SCARY THOUGHT I KNOW. She wants to spend weekends cooped up inside... she won't even go to the grocery store or anything. Then when she needs a binder, paper, pencil, food for lunch or something for school EVERYONE JUMP.I do something because it needs to be done. I am a self starter. I always try to be adventurous. I have to be out doing something. I hate wasting time. I crave interaction. I am always doing something from the moment I wake up... I just have to... I try to be helpful, I like to be helpful. I clean the main bathroom at home weekly. I do yardwork. I clean up the kitchen. My sister does none of the above... I'm not asking her to work miracles, just pitch in, DO SOMETHING, BE SOMETHING. I tend to be more optimistic on everything and look at the positive side of things, she looks at the negative side. I like to see the good things in people, she looks at the negative and harps on it and why this person is so bad. The other day at Knotts I was having a great time and she said I'M SUCH A FAKE PERSON. REAL PEOPLE AREN'T AS HAPPY/PERKY AS I AM. I CAN ASURE YOU I'M NOT TOO HAPPY AND PERKY. But what is wrong with being excited about riding a new roller coaster? HUH?! No... I didn't think so. WHAT THE HECK? I am sure there are lots of people like me. Anyone who has any sense of adventure is fine.I certainly don't act overly perky. I am just a happy person by nature. I am not like on happy pills. I just can't stand being so morose like my sister acts or whatever. I like to get out. Maybe being morise is the "in thing", but that's not in with me. I like happy/optimistic peopel who love life and are interesting. I like to be happy. Who wants to be sad? I try to make everyday an adventure... she doesn't. I love to go new places, I love to travel, I love to see new things, try new things, be helpful, be useful, be around people... she doesn't. I understand not everyone is like me, but I guess that it makes me mad to know everything she is missing and how she doesn't realize it. The fact that though people ask her to do stuff she doesn't. UGGGH I HATE HER.
Posted by Mike at 11:21 AM 1 comments
Labels: family, Rants, Sister, Thoughts
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Gym
I wonder when I'll go this quarter. I want to go 3 times a week. I think it may be Monday or Tuesday night, then Friday and Saturday nights, that's judging based on what my schedule looks like right now. I never knew I'd become so interested in my body image.I really want to go more, just to get more toned. I want to work on my thighs and chest mostly right now. I have been doing different exercises when I go to the gym and am still experimenting with the different machines. I have looked up some gym ab exercises online using free weights, so I guess I'll try those out soon. I've been playing around a lot on freetrainers.com, which is where I got their ab workout thing. A lot of the machines though aren't available at my gym. There are only 3 gym ab machines at my gym. NO LIE. The ab exercises on freetrainers.com are mostly all free weight exercises and I'm kinda nervous about "graduating" to free weights, but if I want to get some definitoin in the chest, I guess it's necessary.I've been doing arms, shoulders, and back one day, then legs and abs another when I was going twice a week. I am noticing a difference... my arms are becoming stronger little by little... my back feels a lot better. I guess the hardest thing for me is I want instant results and gratification. I don't do waiting well as I've pointed out lately and its becoming harder for me to go to the gym when I don't see results instantly.I haven't had time to really go the gym, no, I'm not making excuses... I've just been busy with life, school, Spring Break, family. I have been twice so far this week since I've been able to go in the mornings before school. IT IS SOOO NICE... it's not crowded and teh crowd is much nicer... it is more of the stay at home moms and all the trainers are women then. I want to go more often, but I am not sure when it will happen. I don't like going in the evening when it is so crowded. Next week it'll be back to the evenings... so probably Fridays and Saturdays, then Monday or Tuesday... we'll see.I went from 141 to 145 pounds in the past few months since I've been going to the gym, but I think that is because of the fact I'm eating snacks like granola bars or goldfish crackers in between meals, not that I'm gaining muscle like crazy. I guess it is good I'm eating though, I don't feel "hungry" before dinner really anymore or in between meals. The trainer told me that I should beacuse when you're hungry then you're body turns to proteins and whatnot to get nourished, so then you don't build muscle or anything, so I have been making it a point to. I love food, so I am trying to avoid eating more than I should, which is one of my biggest problems... just keeping it a small snack. I'm not a snacker to begin with, but it's food, and it's yummy, so I indulge.I want to work on my abs/chest more. At the gym I go to they don't have a captain chair at the gym I go to, which was the 2nd most effective exercise according to some website... about.com or something I was on. They only have 3 exercise machines that work out your abs and I've been using them. But I mean I don't see those 3 machines doing everything for me. I'm going to do some reverse crunches and stuff like that at the gym also in the future... that is if there aren't a billion people waiting to use them. You can wait 15-20 minutes just for that and I don't have the patience.
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